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Much better now. My AP suggested that I only be allowed to M on Mondays . . . so that's what I did. Back on Day 1 today. Feb 20, 2024 at 5:46 PM

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    1. +TenPercent
      +TenPercent
      Much better now. My AP suggested that I only be allowed to M on Mondays . . . so that's what I did. Back on Day 1 today.
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    2. +TenPercent
      +TenPercent
      Blue balls. Thrice hoped to make love with my gf these past two weeks (we didn't), fighting urges to M the whole time. Crazy URGES to M now!
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      3. Mr. Unhappy
        Mr. Unhappy
        I’ve never experienced BB.. But prayers for you man, hold on! Most I’ve experienced is pain from extensive edging.
        Feb 18, 2024 at 7:24 PM
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      4. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        I think it's about the same, but maybe worse sometimes when you are hoping for sex and then don't have it. Or maybe that . . . and edging. I get blue balls from edging. Though some of the worst is from expecting sex and not getting it. Painful AND so swollen. It 'feels like" they're so big you could sit on them like a chair!
        Feb 18, 2024 at 7:29 PM
      5. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        and they're better now after some exercise and ibuprofen.
        Feb 18, 2024 at 7:30 PM
    3. +TenPercent
      +TenPercent
      Day 13 . . . ugh, I want to M so bad! Feeling lots of frustrations today. It's so hard to keep my hands off but I will try to stay strong!
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      3. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        That might be a good way to look at it . . . I used to think I was really addicted to arousal - the more intense and the longer the better. I didn't want to O. It was brief and then all the fun was over :(
        This is why I am prone to edging!!
        Someone here helped me to see that I was actually addicted to O, the build up was really for a mind numbing massive O.
        Feb 18, 2024 at 11:17 AM
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      4. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        That helped me to stay in Hard Mode. The addiction is to O. M is to achieve O. And P is needed to M more often - to get more O's.
        I am 99% free of P and have had many long streaks without O . . . but I struggle the most with M. I am p, M and o addicted - with an emphasis on the M.
        Feb 18, 2024 at 11:19 AM
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      5. WaterNewt
        WaterNewt
        Happy to hear that! Let's stay focused and strong, brother!
        Feb 18, 2024 at 11:48 AM
    4. +TenPercent
      +TenPercent
      Had a great Valentine's Day (though love making might have made it better). Struggling with urges and impulses to masturbate. Day 11 . . .
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      3. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        I'm glad to have a fellow traveller on this journey and grateful for your support! This is about self improvement AND it's about commitment in a relationship.
        Feb 16, 2024 at 3:47 PM
      4. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        My partner has not set boundaries on masturbation (but porn is not okay). I need to do my part to ensure that I am present for her and capable of intimacy when the time comes. And M for me is dangerous territory - it can lead me down dark pathways of fantasy and back to porn use.
        Feb 16, 2024 at 3:50 PM
      5. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        @_Rasha_ I believe that intimacy with a partner is far more important than masturbation, but now I am thrice thwarted. I've held off so that we might make love last Saturday, then Valentine's and now this Saturday. It's okay that we didn't but I am REALLY struggling not to M today!
        Feb 18, 2024 at 12:43 PM
    5. +TenPercent
      +TenPercent
      Day 10 without M. Happy Valentine's Day!! Don't let V-day be an excuse for self pity (or PMO) - Focus on the love that you can give
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      2. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        and celebrate the people you love . . .
        Feb 14, 2024
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    6. +TenPercent
      +TenPercent
      Had a rough, stressful day. Tempted to M. Not because of arousal, simply to relieve myself of all this stress. I'll take a bath . . .
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      +TenPercent
      Day 8 without M. Grateful to have made it through the temptation and for the support I've received. Now to balance w/ Valentine's day . . .
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      +TenPercent
      Day 6 without M. Wish I could just M, and have sex, whenever I like. But holding out on M . . . so that I might be able to have sex tonight.
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      3. _Rasha_
        _Rasha_
        Well just make sure to not want it as a form of fake freedom from the addiction and just temporary release. Intimacy is more important than that. Hope things go well. I myself decided I don't want to do it until I'm somewhat free of the urges.
        Feb 11, 2024
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      4. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        Thank you for your response. It helps so much to be heard (and therefor helps to hold me accountable). Good for you to give up M until you are free!
        I agree - intimacy is MUCH more important. Masturbation is a want, not a need, and it can REALLY get in the way of intimacy. Just for today, I will try to go another day without it.
        Feb 11, 2024
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      5. _Rasha_
        _Rasha_
        You're very welcome. Good luck @+TenPercent , hope you figure it out. I'm there if you ever needed a listening ear
        Feb 12, 2024
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    9. +TenPercent
      +TenPercent
      Day 5 without M. It's crazy how I'll have no urges, think that I'm free, and then the urges comes up for no (outer) reason, just physiology
      1. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        While I have have nearly 3 yrs free from porn, and don't M nearly so much, when the urge hits . . . it's amazing how quickly it overwhelms me sometimes and how quickly I give in.
        Feb 9, 2024
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      2. LetsBeLovely87
        LetsBeLovely87
        You're living the true liberty!
        Feb 9, 2024
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      3. Mr. Cooler
        Mr. Cooler
        You've done well ...
        Feb 9, 2024
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      +TenPercent
      Three plus years without looking at porn (with 4 slips, each less than 20 minutes). Not perfect, but it still adds up to 3+ years.
    11. +TenPercent
      +TenPercent
      A month without checking in . . . had sex w/ gf last night. O for her, no O for me. I feel content in my heart but my body feels different.
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        +TenPercent
        My (reasonable) goal now is sex about 1x per week, MO a bit less often, and no porn. In reality, I'll probably MO more than sex, because that is what I am drawn to.
        Jan 21, 2024
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      3. Khufu
        Khufu
        MO is like a hard narcotic drug addiction to me
        Jan 24, 2024
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    12. Khufu
      Khufu
      merry christmas
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    13. +TenPercent
      +TenPercent
      Have chosen to MO, on occasion. It's a slippery slope. Trying to avoid fantasy and edging. Nearly 3 years free from porny porn (w/ 4 slips).
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      +TenPercent
      Relapsed. P, M and O. Lots to learn from this experience. Proud that I made it almost 300 days without MO, though!
      1. TideHunter
        TideHunter
        Stand and rise again!
        Oct 22, 2023
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      2. Mr.Tony
        Mr.Tony
        You were great my brother, remember that Edging is only making you a Dopamine Addict, and there is nothing good coming from it.
        Oct 22, 2023
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      3. Khufu
        Khufu
        i keep forgetting to get some napoleon bonaparte material in my library...but proud of your progress none the less
        Dec 18, 2023
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      +TenPercent
      293 days without masturbating. Day 1 without edging . . . let's see if I can get through just one day without edging.
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      3. TheLoneWolf88
        TheLoneWolf88
        All the shit I look at is burned into my memory. So even if I.I not actually browsing, I get haunted with these images I can't shake
        Oct 18, 2023
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      4. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        You, gentlemen, are my people. Sadly, I relapsed. P,M and O. Dang it! But now I am wondering about some of the wisdom I have heard from others . . . that edging is perhaps even worse than MO. I could edge for hours - not exactly healthy. At least if I MO, it's 100% clear what I did, and did not do. Plus it takes up less time. Even the chasers might not be as bad as slipping into frequent edging.
        Oct 21, 2023
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      5. TheLoneWolf88
        TheLoneWolf88
        Edging is one of the worst things you can do. You're teasing your sex drive. And there's only so much teasing it can tolerate
        Oct 21, 2023
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      +TenPercent
      292 days without masturbating
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      2. AngelLightAdi
        AngelLightAdi
        Congrats
        Oct 10, 2023
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      3. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        Day 0 without edging. Ugh. Can't stop.
        Oct 10, 2023
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      +TenPercent
      291 days without masturbating . . . to orgasm. Day 2 without edging.
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      +TenPercent
      I am guilty . . . of edging, extreme edging. AKA masturbating for a long time but always stopping right before orgasm. Day 289 without MO.
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      2. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        Was hoping to make love with my girlfriend . . . that didn't happen. Now my body is screaming for orgasm. Feels like it is ready for release and just wants a little help. Ugh.
        Oct 7, 2023
      3. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        Survived major URGE to MO this morning. Really bad blue balls followed.
        Oct 7, 2023
    19. +TenPercent
      +TenPercent
      Day 287 without masturbating . . . to orgasm. Feeling down today and having a resurgence of the desire for "release"
      1. shred75
        shred75
        How r you man.
        Oct 5, 2023
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      2. Mr.Tony
        Mr.Tony
        Keep it up man - You are improving!
        Oct 5, 2023
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      +TenPercent
      5th most recent profile post is over 12 hours old! Where have all the fapstronauts gone?
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      2. HealingBodyandMind
        HealingBodyandMind
        yea... and plus, no new members are being added either...
        Oct 2, 2023
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      3. +TenPercent
        +TenPercent
        It's been backlogged for weeks. No new members will eventually kill this thing. :(
        Oct 5, 2023
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    Orgasm Addict. Compulsive Masturbator. Porn, Fantasy and Edging Addict. Longest streaks without O: 55, 63, 125, 129, 134, 154d.; without M: 191 days; without P: 454 days.
    Best "imperfect" Streak = 325 days w/ one M slip (MO @125, WD @259, sex @ 296)

    0 unauthorized voluntary releases (i.e. M) (of 4) in 2023 vs 18/22 in 2022 13/25 in 2021, 24/42 in 2020, 5/18 in 2019, 40/43 in 2018 and 82/82 in 2017.
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