Day 3 without masturbation. I’ve already faced some chasers, hasn’t been easy, but I’m aiming for no touching, no edging, no MO.
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Day 2 without masturbation.
Day 1 without masturbation: no edging, no touching with the intent of getting aroused, no MO.
I’ve gone 100+ days without MO, even 400+ but now I’m seeing if I can go 90 days without ANY masturbation.
Day zero. I gave in to MO.
On the upside, I’m now on day zero for MO, edging and touching.
It gives me an opportunity to move the needle - instead of no P or no MO, now I can focus on no edging.
Day 1 without edging and day 1 without touching and day 45 without MO … though I was sorely tempted to MO today.
Grateful that I didn’t!
Day 0 without touching and day 0 without edging.
Still at 44 days without MO since I didn’t O, but that’s also under review.
I am grateful for my AP. She’s helping me to stay accountable and not letting me weasel out of things. I have to face the truth about my sexual behavior before I can change it.
Day 4 of no touching. So far I’ve been blessed with few and mostly mild urges. Chaser effect from having sex (on day 0) hasn’t really struck … yet.
Day 29 without edging. Day 44 without MO. Praying for one more day.
Day 2 of no touching. Off to a good(?) start. Shortly after waking up I was overcome with a powerful urge, but even if it seems to be screaming at me, I just have to keep my hands away and suffer the full arousal. The good news is that it passed pretty quickly.
26 days without edging, 41 days without MO and … day 1 without touching.
To some it’s all masturbation, to someone like me who can’t stop touching, these are important distinctions.
It’s more than I want to track, but I might not have to for long - a slip with one can be a slip with all
39 days without MO. Not doing M to the point of O is starting to become normal even though I could do it every day.
24 days without edging. It’s so hard not to edge, or not touch just a little bit.
I have touched. I’ve had little slips. But I’ve managed to back off before it’s gone on for minutes, before getting to the edge of orgasm.
For me this is major progress.
36 days without MO.
I nearly had an O at work - just felt like it was going to go off in my pants, for no good reason.
I fought it and fought it. But part of me, even as this was happening, debated if I should just let it out.
And when the feeling passed, I half regretted that I hadn’t creamed my pants … 90% sure it might have gone unnoticed, but only 90%!!
How crazy is that??
20 days without edging and 35 days without MO. It’s been messy. Not perfect. And it feels like it should be longer! I’ve had long long streaks without the O to make it MO, but that just means I’ve gotten a little too good at edging. Trying to stop the edging.
There is a clear link between my inability to stop touching myself and lack of self control in other areas.
Day 19 without edging. Day 34 without masturbating to orgasm.
I am so very grateful for my AP and for making it through the last week and a half without giving in.
Ha! I wrote day 6 yesterday instead of 7.
This morning’s activities were dubious but I’m optimistic about the days ahead!
Day 6 without edging. A whole week! And day 22 without MO.
The hard part is not edging. I need to focus on that. No MO should follow.
I nearly slipped yesterday. I wanted to slip and slip hard. Having a new AP has definitely helped.
Day 6 without edging. Day 21 without MO.
I want to rest, or even “treat myself” after a long day, but I know it’d be better to keep on trudging until the end of this day.
What do I really want in life?
Health and wealth
Peace and contentment
Friends and connection
How will masturbating (or porn) get me there?
That is the great lie of lust!
It gives me a rush of pleasure, even to just look, but it only leads me AWAY from these goals.
Day 5 without edging. 20 days without MO.
I’m very excited to be on day 4 without edging.
And …as of today … I can say that I have MO’d one time in the last 450 days
Day 3 without edging. Just getting to day 2 felt like amazing and I’m grateful to be on day 3 today.
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