Back in hell, I'm depressed, sad, anxious, and frankly out of it. I tried to heal with jogging, meditating, smoothies, flow (tasks that are not to easy but not to hard.), friends, and Sudoku. PMO was a horrible decision. Me and my GF were out of state, there was a class in PA and she came. Long story short I was rebooting with ED and to get me up she started role playing. I alerted my GF that it felt like watching Porn. "She said if it feels the same why don't you just watch Porn tonight?" I tried to fight the urge, the temptation. My streak before this one was 131 days, this streak was 19 days. I realize another better choice would be to turn her down. It's easy to control my environment at home, at least my room, but this was a hotel. It took me two days to break the porn bug. I'm now jumped back from square one hundred and thirty one to square two. First Useful Lesson; Remember the principle of peeks and valleys when you try and quit porn. We humans remember the high points and the low points of experiences and forget time. Quitting after a big painful binge might work better then a small painless binge. Second Useful Lesson; Write how you feel before and write how you feel after you masturbate. I wrote down my energy level, horny level, tired level, and excitement level. Example: Before Masturbation After Masturbation Energy level 9 Energy level 1 Horny level 9 Horny level 5 Tired level 8 Tired level 9 Excitement level 9 Excitement level 1 Use to find out if other activities are working: television, computer games, facebook etc. Third Useful Lesson; Write down how you feel on the days you give up porn and how you feel when you are on porn. Write categories for anxiety, depression, joy, amusement, interest, gratitude, friendship and other categories. Compare and contrast. Fourth Useful Lesson; Write a action pledge promise sentence twenty one- thirty times. I wrote I promise to stop watching porn and instead I choose to be happy. Write this and your streaks may jump.
131 Amazing! But the main question stands how do you quit it for life, without even a drop of wanting to fap to something that illusory.
I think its all about self care when giving up addiction: sleeping 8 hours, eating equal proteins to carbohydrates, exercising 30 minutes a day, and avoid sitting down more then you sleep.
Slowly finding my way out of hell. I feel my brain rebooting, my feelings are coming back so I can communicate. For all, you feel so much better after reboot!
Bro compliment this with a 12 step fellowship, SLAA and 90 meetings in 90 days, do the 12 steps and this will become very simple. Hope that helps
@whiteknight, I'll look up the twelve steps. I realized what I lost one day 131 when I fapped, I lost my functioning brain when I turned from nofap. I'm allergic to bread and find porn worse then eating bread.
I told my pastor,(An ex-alcoholic) but no AP. Would help a lot during later stages. I made it by helping folks on nofap, a very strong motivator so you don't forget the goal; A life free of no PMO.
Bro, I use SLAA Skype meetings. 12 steps Ive lived for 12 years funnily enough. Ive had zero issues since surrendering porn, women and even shagging my wife for this 100 day reboot and im nearly half way through the withdrawal phase was hard eg first 2 weeks but now it isnt an issue. happy to assist if you need information
@WhiteKnight775, Sounds good, bro. I'm not familiar with SLAA but I have Skype. I'm curious, please send info if possible!
sex & love addicts anonymous they have an awesome on line meeting system (SKYPE) twice a day morning and evening and its 12 step based. I use to think this was some form of sex addiction it isnt, its emotional anorexia and sexual anorexia . google sex and love addicts anonymous skype meetings
Just wanna wish you good luck David,and tell you that even when you feel down or depressed, you must try to shed your fallacious emotions and see the world for what it really is: You live in an amazing age, where you can adquire basically anything you want in terms of the mind and spirit. And you are lucky too, you have a girlfriend, a house, a job (I assuming). Im not telling you to be happy because you can, im telling you to feel better because you possess unlimited potential. What are you going to do with it?
I been trying NoFap for over year. I'm self conscious about my self I think that's why it's hard for me to quit, I have rosacea on my face. & my longest streak is 15 days & I told my brother about it he take it as joke. Maybe I just need support idk anymore
I support you! I recommend writing down your day to day events. Find where the problem starts and the small changes before relapse. You can do it!!
