Thank you for sharing your experience! You're right. I just wanted too much and it can't be perfect. I reflected on it today and came to the conclusion that it's best to keep going forward from now on, as you guys have said. Leave the past behind, learn from it and focus on what's inside my control...or live with the Amish
Checking in day 10. Most motivating part of the day to log in and see all you people fighting this and supporting each other and myself. Keep going all
Alas. I was almost an Uruk-hai, but I remain...an Orc. Swear to god I will become an Uruk-hai this time! Here we go again. Not going to give up.
i had a wet dream today. i couldnt control it, it just so happened. i didnt do anything the day/night before that could possibly feed my imagination. i think its part of the rewiring process. will now focus even more on staying alert and vigilant and my mission in life, whatever that is. what i observed yesterday during the day was that i was unnaturally (for me) aggressive. when i was at mass, an observation of myself occured to me: that i had been the nice guy for nearly my entire life. i came to realize that, and that made me angry and also determined to change it. but it also left me clueless, as i then wondered, who i was at all? because of pmo i have so long identified myself to be this beta type of guy; now that i cut pmo, that image of myself disappears. i finally come to my senses. i am not that person, i am someone much stronger than that. every day in my streak brings me closer to where i am supposed to be. its a process though, i have to be patient. rome wasnt build in a day.
Hey! Thank you so much for this. I am 110% in! Good luck everyone! Fight the good fight. I'm on day 3 rn, so pretty much a new start.
3 days done. Not many urges but not none either. Focusing on staying busy and trying to limit arousal of any kind, but not beating myself up either way
Welcome to Middle Earth brother!! Stay with us, the Fellowship is united and strong It´s a long way to Mount Doom, but first you got to take off that skin . Let´s go!!!!
One more day of walking my brothers. In the halls of Moria. Let´s welcome our new brother in this journey: @Inigo_Montoya Here´s a newsletter from JK Emezi, have a great day!! "Brother, I know you have some recurring questions about your behavior with porn. How do I stop permanently? How do I begin to develop self respect once again? How do I deal with the fact that a part of me wants to quit and another parts doesn't? ( and they both want what they want equally) Will I ever be able to have a normal relationship? How do I relate to women in a non-sexual way? I'll be showing your how to answer all these questions. But before I do, I'd like you to first understand and incorporate three core FACTS into your beliefs about rebooting. 1) You are NOT a bad person: You did not make the best choices when it came to your addiction- this does not make you bad. Sure, it makes you feel guilty because your behavior is hurting you and others...but it does not make you bad. Your shame makes you take you guilt and use it as a weapon against yourself. This is what creates the illusion of you being a "bad" person. The truth is simple: You have buried your goodness deep within you. You just need to find it once more. 2) Everyone is an addict: Yes. The human brain is designed to medicate pain, emotions, loneliness and more in different ways. We are not born with coping skills for every single behavior. We either learn healthy coping skills, or we find something in our environment to deal with these emotional states. Everyone is addicted to something- validation, social media, food, work, praise, complaining, being in a relationship, drugs, alcohol...whatever we can use to escape. Don't EVER let anyone judge you and more importantly, don't ever feel that you are worse off then someone else because of your addiction. Many people are unaware of their addiction or worse still- hiding it. 3) You CAN recover- but it takes time: 2 months of addiction or 2 decades- it doesn't matter. You can rewire your brain and be free of your addiction forever. Unfortunately, like anything else worth attaining in life, it will take time. If you've been watching porn for years, you can't simply end your behavior in a few months. Many men think that a few months off porn is enough to achieve freedom. The truth is that this journey, with the correct system, takes at least a year and a half to two full years to achieve full freedom and rewire your brain. This means getting to a point where your past with porn felt like a bad dream...where you wonder if any of it was even real. Two years may seem like a long time- but think about it. 2018 was just two years ago. If you started taking action then- you'd be free today. ( Taking action means following a system- not just reading emails, watching videos and listening to podcasts) Most of my clients learn how to control their behavior and never fear slipping or relapsing within 90 Days. Mentally, though- you must be prepared for the long haul. Either way, freedom is yours. Accept the time it takes, and you'll be ready to begin your journey. Your brother in this struggle, J.K Emezi"