The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 26 : )

 

40 days

 

Day 2.

Sorry, mates. Two days ago I fell. In that moment I only had a bad memory of PMO which I didn´t fought. I didn´t see the rock in my path. Now I´m very sad because that was a very good time without PMO that was break due to a little moment of confusion. But I won´t totally sincere if I don´t admit that in the previous days I dedicated less time to pray, I can´t visit NoFap as I was doing and some P things were haunting my head.

This is gonna be a thought week, when rebooting is more easy, specially because I´m missing the last good streak and I´m being hard wth myself for falling.

Holy Mary, Virgin Mother of Christ, pray for us. You are our best help. Please give us your grace.

 

9days completed
Night I had dream that I have watching porn
and feel bad in dream itself , after woke up from bed I realised and sustained thank God

 

Day 22 brothers... keep on going... we have a PMO ring to destroy...

 

Day 1!

 

Prayer is all we have after our willpower fails, and fail it certainly will (judging from personal experience). Pay attention to how and when porn and porn-related images emerge in your mind. It always starts with just one. Immediately banish by calling upon our Lord's name and the Virgin Mother of Christ. If you notice that the images keep returning, and that you are even mentally indulging in fantasies, lingering on those images, then you should be alarmed: the demons have encircled you, and will feed you lies, which you will repeat to yourself, until you fall in their trap. At this stage, only the most urgent, pleading, almost "panicked" prayer can help you. I was struggling with temptation last night, and at some point an eerie face appeared in my mind while I was brushing my teeth. I recognized its demonic provenance and fell to prayer as soon as I had finished brushing my teeth. I prayed my nightly prayers more ardently than ever before. I was knocking and persistently begging Christ for help and mercy. I did not skip a single prayer, and even did additional other prayers at the end (a series of "Lord Jesus Christ Have Mercy On Me" while making the sign of cross). Then I picked up the Gospel and opened it at a random page. It turned out to be Luke 11, which spoke directly to me and my situation. I read it carefully, made the sign of the cross, and went to bed feeling relieved, peaceful. While falling asleep, I was thinking about how I rare it is for me to pray as ardently and urgently as I just had: God wants this from us, he wants us to turn to him, to increase our prayer life: so if our struggle with lust is what we need in order to turn to God ardently, then at the end it may turn out to be an instrument to bring us closer to him. (Read the story of Saint Mary of Egypt, if you have not already.)

From Luke 11:

A Friend Comes at Midnight
5 And He said to them, “Which of you shall have a friend, and go to him at midnight and say to him, ‘Friend, lend me three loaves; 6 for a friend of mine has come to me on his journey, and I have nothing to set before him’; 7 and he will answer from within and say, ‘Do not trouble me; the door is now shut, and my children are with me in bed; I cannot rise and give to you’? 8 I say to you, though he will not rise and give to him because he is his friend, yet because of his persistence he will rise and give him as many as he needs.

Keep Asking, Seeking, Knocking
9 “So I say to you, ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. 10 For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened. 11 If a son asks for bread from any father among you, will he give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will he give him a serpent instead of a fish? 12 Or if he asks for an egg, will he offer him a scorpion? 13 If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask Him!”

 

260 days here! Feeling great lately, met three girls in one week!

 

Day 15: I've finally made it back to being a Hobbit. I ended up having a wet dream yesterday morning that made me feel a bit crummy. I had some brain fog and low energy after it. Luckily I bounced back fairly quickly and pushed on with the rest of the day!

 

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31 days strong today! I didn't check in yesterday, which was my official 30-day mark, but I'm here now. Elf status!

 

Need prayers.Relapsed today.I blocked all ways leading to pmo known to me,movies,fb,insta,memories but i relapsed while searching for a book to control our emotions in amazon kindle.And I saw the books on offer so scanned through it and my eyes caught hold of the book called kamasutra,as far as my knowledge it's a ancient india script about s*x nd all,but i saw it released in numerous languages of the world so got curious and turned its pages.First i thought i would never fall for this book as i have come this far,93 Days.Then started searching for more and more erotic books and ended up on pmo.
So my overconfidence and carelessness got me here.
My prayer also was very week for past weak,i couldn't concentrate on the decades of rosary,started daydreaming all time and had quarrel with my dad.Also due to lockdown got no sacraments for 3 months.

Back to orc from grey wizard @RiseToGreatness

 

This goes to show we can never let our guard down. But 93 days is inspiring bro. Get back on the horse, we are with you!

 

93 days is a remarkable feat. Your relapse is an opportunity for obtaining greater insight and wisdom. In the large picture, this is a victory way more than it is a defeat! Cheer up, and do not wallow in regret thinking about the "old person" – the Evil One wants us to dwell gloomily on our sins: he incites us to sin precisely so that we can become downcast and despair. It is unbecoming of one who accepts Christ and knows the Eternal Mercy and Love of our Lord to remain gloomy and despondent. Get up quickly with "mad cheerfulness," take up the cross, and fight the good fight keeping your eyes fixed on our Lord Jesus Christ.