Tough night.. was started some sex desire during night and some in the morning. Need to get out of the computer for longer period and start beeing more productive to use my creativity. Day 15 Still standing I kinda started feeling less need to listen the music which before was to me like necessary to do any kind of activity. Whenever I was going out or doing I was listening to the music. Now I dont feel that need. In fact I even turning it off to just stay calm and listen what surrounds me, good stuff. Never give up and ... :
Day 3 Fuck!! I relapsed today!! Starting the streak again. Can please anyone tell me how to control urges. I've a passion of writing and usually write 5-6 hours a day and read for 6 hours. But still the urges snag me and gobble me down. Need help. Urgent!!
Day 24 I am going great but since I skipped meditation coz I was super busy.. I kinda have hard time with nofap monk mode.. This made me realize that how much meditation helps to calm me down.. It really does .. Power ups are really important for me Like I said till last month I used to relapse the day I didn't meditate... Now thanks to a good streak I can manage few days without meditation but it is still important really important.. Moral of the story : you have to give your best if you wanna get rid of this addiction once for all
Day 24. Some stress from work is testing my determination to continue. I'm glad I have so much momentum behind me and I feel so strong in my conviction. Life is good and I am thrilled to face every day as it is. Good or bad.
Day 10 I will be two weeks clean from porn on Saturday, and I will be a hobbit on Monday at 8:30PM. This is the longest I have made it in weeks, and other than the PMO relapse dreams, I am going strong. My mom was hospitalized yesterday after they discovered a heart infection and they thought she might have had a heart attack. Thankfully her heart is healthy, and though it is a viral infection, her immune system should pass it in the next week, so her life should not be in danger. It was definitely a concern. He doctor told her to go to the emergency room because her symptoms were reminiscent of a blood clot, but after a lot of tests, she just has a virus that irritated her heart. The last week has seen a lot of stressors that if I were not controlling my urges and avoiding triggers, would have been enough to push me over the edge. I am quite proud of myself, and the fact that I am keeping my low bar for reset/relapse promise leading me to work extra hard, and to not make excuses. Best, Mathman1994
I relapsed again last night. Checking back in with 0 full days down. It's been a weird last few weeks. I've been letting circumstances beyond my control get to me, instead of being proactive. I plan to check in here everyday until I establish a positive, anti-PMO routine that facilitates my life goals.