My entire life was a lie

Discussion in 'Loneliness' started by Risperidona, Aug 22, 2020.

  1. Risperidona

    Risperidona Fapstronaut

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    This is my first post here, sorry for my english, i'm from Argentina. I started nofap a few months ago... i'm 22, before starting my streak i have this mindset that i was better than everyone else, the best in everything, i thought that i was a pretty guy, smart and stuff like that... i started nofap because i thought that the quarentine was ruinning my life, but after a while, a morning i woke up, and i looked at the mirror and I saw myself like i'm really are... a skinny ugly guy, that reached his 22 without archieve any goal... i've never been the guy who i thought i was... is like i've been living in the matrix all this years...

    Now that i see the reality how it really is, everything is s***, i'm lonely and ashamed because all my stupid belives... PMO fooled my making me thing i had a life that i never had. I don't know how to describe this feeling, is like i worth nothing, how could i be so stupid.
     
  2. Risperidona

    Risperidona Fapstronaut

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    I've been blaming the quarentine for excessive PMO, but now i realized that this was the problem that i had my all life, i haven't a single friend because of this, no gf, no nothing.
     
  3. matt2k12

    matt2k12 Fapstronaut

    good. welcome to the real world. the future lies ahead of you. men tend to age like wine, while women age like milk. as for what to do; inform yourself, read red pill content, and wake up. dont be too hard on yourself. rome wasnt built in a day, and waking up and becoming the man that god intended you to be is no over night task.
     
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  4. Brother, the good news is you realized it. And - you realized it when you are still a young man. You do not want to experience this in your 30s, 40s, or 50s, do you?
    Do not feel ashamed or upset, those feelings will not help you.
    You are a good person, so do not waste time feeling bad. Start fixing your life right now! No more porn. Never! Watch what happens when you work really hard at changing your life. You can do it.
     
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  5. Risperidona

    Risperidona Fapstronaut

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    thanks a lot for listening, this month was the hardest in my entire life, last week i finally left my home and rent a very cheap room, i'm starting from 0, i don't even know how to cook, the university is going bad, i can't belive how fooled i've been, i feel like a kid, i can't tell anybody my problems because i have no friends, all this time thinking that life was easy, doing PMO and playing videogames, and real world is so fucking hard... now i'm trying to study what i should have studied all the year but seems impossible.
     
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  6. dandausa

    dandausa Fapstronaut

    That's the first step. Don't be too hard on yourself, one day at a time. Self-compassion is one of the first steps that helps in change. Be honest with yourself and others, and then cover that honesty and desire to change with compassion.

    This video was really helpful for me. :)
     
  7. hollyman

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    im 29 and i found this comment disturbing
     
  8. Angus McGyver

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    I remember when my 14-15 years of PMO came crashing down on me in October (almost) four years ago.
    That period and two months forwards (until New Year's eve) was the worst period in my life as I felt totally indifferent, sad, crushed and defeated, despite having achieved some big goals (according to most) for the past 10-11 years prior to that point.
    Still, it was that crash and rough self-ransacking I needed so bad in order to get my life on track again. So, to this day, I'm very glad that I actually received that red-flag so early because who knows for how many more years I might otherwise have continued down that destructive path?

    Although I might have achieved some big goals before age 30 (earning BS & MS degrees, being a semi-professional athlete for 13 years total, living, studying and working six years abroad, remaining in great shape) I would probably have been a millionaire long time ago if I had cut out PMO 5-10 years earlier but it's nothing I go around dwelling on. I rather try to do the absolutely best I can with the time I have right now. I also try not dwelling about not having had a serious girlfriend or wife yet (I am 32 years old now) since I see how many of my friends and acquaintances are miserable in their current relationships.
    That's why I stick to the rules of rather being too icy and selective than throwing myself into something that can potentially ruin my life for decades to come.
    Also, "No cohabitation until engagement" is something I try to live by because that will really test the character of my future woman.
     
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