day 4: feeling no urges. Mostly the urges come around day 6 or 7. Mostly in the weekends. But now i am mostly alone at home because i am working for school. So urges can come any time of the day because of the boredom. Besides that, sometimes i can not sleep very well. Anyone any tips too fall asleep fast?
Day 8, feeling good. That's awesome, you seem to really be doing well. A no sugar log sounds good, my personal experience is that it's good to be careful with doing everything at once. It can get overwhelming. BUT that's just my experience and if you think it's the right thing to do you are the best judge of that. Keep up the great work!
Tonight I've dreamed I watched porn. This had not happened to me in a long time. When I've woken up I was confused and I could't tell reality from the dream. This state has led me to seriously thinking about watching porn. But I haven't! I can't control what I do in my dreams but what happens in real life is all up to me. And my reality right now is that I won't relapse. I feel good for not giving up but I know I'll have to be extra careful now. Day 23 Keep fighting my brothers and sisters!
Well, I finally fell... I'm proud of having accomplished 22 days and I'm glad I haven't binged, like I would've done before. During this last streak I have only focused on NoFap, and I have neglected other aspects of self improvement like meditation and dopamine detox. This has led me to feeling kinda miserable despite having a good streak. As RiseToGreatness always says, you have to work on positive habits. From now on everytime I intend to do anything I'll ask myself "is this the right thing to do?" and I'll only do it if the deepest part of me says it is. It will be hard but it's time I stop living an "easy" and empty life. Day 0
22 days is great, and good on you for coming back and logging right after and evaluating. we've all fallen, we can all rise
I just became an Uruk-hai for the first time! Especially the no porn is very hard for me. Watching porn is such a routine at moments when I'm alone, I feel alone or when I feel stressed. As i was moving to a new place this week I had quite some stress moments. But I knew that watching porn and masturbating would ultimately make me feel more low and weak, so i kept away from it. It's this false feeling of comfort that I have to keep fighting. Everyone keep on fighting the good fight!
Well, so far no. but when i reach 2 years of sobriety i´m planning to leave the thread, not close it though. the thread is too important to be shut down so at that time i will pass the administration to other brothers. i hope you volunteer
brother, the lonely feeling is very common to people. however, being alone is not the same as "feeling lonely", we can be surrounded by people and still feel lonely. i suggest you reflect upon what makes you feel lonely and take measures on it. if you are "physically" alone, then that can be a high trigger, since being alone for addicts means indulging in the addiction. try to don´t be home alone with eletronic devices in the first months of reboot, especially in the first 30 days, since the pull of PMO is very strong in the beginning and it will make you go autopilot easily. block yourself from harms way, that´s a good insurance against relapses. also daily engage in good habits, and mentally fortify yourself on the reboot mindset. more details in my signature meanwhile congratulations, you´re a Uruk-Hai now . Keep going!!!
One more day of walking brave Fellowship I entered the Morgul Road!! Finally . A “road that glows with an eerie luminescence” running east and west through the Morgul Vale and over the Morgul Pass in western Mordor. Minas Morgul is still far away but no worries, one day at a time Mighty Companion, reflecting upon Chadwick Boseman premature death (RIP), i wanna talk to you about a life phylosophy that i´ve been following in the last months. It´s called minimalism, i engage in it after viewing a documentary: minimalism, a documentary on the important things. https://www.imdb.com/title/tt3810760/ This is excellent piece of advise and eye opener about the importance of spending our time well. Many times we do things, spend our time and money in things and situations that are not really in our best interest. We just do it by society pressure, concepts, or out of sheer habit “to have something”. Minimalism is about eliminating all the situations, objects, behaviours, etc that are not really given value to your life. and stick with those that does so take a look around, you´ll find lot of stuff in and around your life that are not giving value to it, some things might even been ruining it. Every object that you have, every action that you take, every relation that you engage, is that giving value to your life? if not, take action, because your wasting your time and energy in something that doesn´t serve you. Start right now, ask yourself: “am i in this forum because i like to, i want to, or because i have nothing else to do?” As Chadwick death remind us, time is not an asset, it´s a privilege. Use it well my brothers and sisters. Onward!!!!