Yay! Day 15 Back to Hobbit ! Feeling much better. Going to go work on my goals and score some honest dopamine.
Thirteen days have passed. Two more, and for the first time I will be a Hobbit. It has been a long time coming.
Day 20! It was good. Kind of disheartening. I have friends that feel like they are abandoning me but that is more of just a me thing. I get attached and then things change. I should learn to get more independence.
Unfortunately after the triggers yesterday, I have been in a hyper sensitive state and that needlessly led me to falling over into the abyss again after 31 days. I no longer feel anxious, just bummed. Day 0: Orc @RiseToGreatness
Relapsed Again, Too Many Relapses This Week. Restarting Day 0 Check-In!!!! Journey Starts Again!!!!!!
It’s tmj dysfunction and teeth grinding for me, and I suspect my unresolved anger has a lot to do with it PMO helped me avoid my anger issues. But since I’ve been PMO free, I’ve been processing through a lot of emotional issues. My TMJ issues seem to be improving a lot. I hope your headaches get better my friend.
You did great getting to where you were and coming on here to report, no apology needed. Like you said binging is key, you’ve made great progress, as long as you keep it to a single reset you’ve still made progress. We are still APs, rise and rise again
Two more days of walking dear Fellowship. i´m sorry but today i feel very low and tired so not feeling in the mood for motivating anyone . no posts on individual upgrades. however the following brothers have upgraded, congratulations @LuckyMan - Hobbit @Swazzy 1 - Hobbit @Breakthrough! - Uruk-Hai I still have some energy in me for a final inspiration. and i think this is just what i need, and some of you may also. i open this newsletter today and it´s right on spot on how i feel. talking about coincidences... JK Emezi on rest "Hi brother, I sent myself to bed early the other night. I had been in a bad, bad mood all day. As if we haven’t been spending enough time together lately, a few rainy days forced us to keep even tighter quarters than usual. My anxiety shows up as irritability at times and I was a walking, talking storm cloud, shedding my own showers all around me. All these years into my journey - I’m still learning and still growing. I still need reminders to tune in to what my body and brain are telling me. My inner storm was telling me that I needed to rest - both physically and mentally. When it comes to storms, we can bury our heads in the sand and ignore the warnings or we can listen, prepare, and do what is needed to prevent further damage. That was why I sent myself to bed. The combination of being stuck inside, working 14-16 hour days, family responsibilities, and the sleep deprivation that came with it, was threatening to turn my little storm cloud into a destructive hurricane if I didn’t heed the warnings and do some damage control. Years ago, I ignored the warnings of pushing myself too much and end up relapsing to porn and masturbation. The lack of sex drive warnings, the persistent anger bubbling to the surface and staying with me all day, the “I can’t believe that watched THAT” warnings, so many warnings, yet, I continued doing what I had always done.Thinking that "willpower" and "positive thinking" would save me. That didn’t work then for quitting porn and it wouldn’t work now for changing my mood. My body and brain were screaming at me that this wasn’t working. They needed a break. I turned off my phone. Shut down my laptop. Took a warm shower and I went to bed. I wrote in my journal. Reading a little bit of a fiction book allowed my brain to turn off and my body to relax. Ignoring the storm won’t mean it misses you, but preparing for dark clouds ahead can mean getting through the storm unscathed. Your brother in this struggle, J.K “Weather the storm” Emezi
Third day of today's streak. Will level with you, I briefly thought about giving into day but I talked myself out of it.