Yeah man no one else did, I bet you're right and there are others who are hiding their problems too. I wish you the best my brother
Yesterday Rank 55 noPMO - Jedi Knight The last week was just awesome. I never felt the superpowers as strong as currently. Just do this shit Trust me guys, it's gonna be crazy
Day 8, checking in. Found a new tool, or maybe strategy not sure what to call it. It may not work for everyone but it does kind of help me a little bit. Found this idea in the book of Atomic Habits. One of the ideas is to make our "Cues" things that initially start that motion towards porn invisible. If we can't see them they can't trigger or cue us. I'm now putting away my laptop and or phone when I'm done using them. I make them invisible, and it seems to help. I realized today that just seeing those devices can cause triggers, because I associate them with using porn. Just a thought.
Is that 4 weeks I hear? I think it is, at 2 weeks I was like yo this is a bit mad you know but 4 weeks is crazy. Let's see how far I can get. And I will finally upgraded to a Jedi Knight tomorrow I think.
Day 6, my last day as a youngling. I look forward to being a padawan tomorrow, I'm going for a green lightsaber this time
Checking in for Day 11. Did some more careful traveling last week. I safely reconnected with old friends and went on a lot of walks. I stayed with a friend of mine and we had sex. She and I are figuring out how to make a long distance relationship work in the age of covid. She's known about my struggles with this addiction for almost a year now and has been encouraging me through the rebooting process. I'm prepared to manage urges and the chaser effect until I see her next. I started back at work today and received some somber news that my job might be in jeopardy. I felt pretty dejected earlier today about the possibility of being let go. I'm doing my best to remain positive and deal with this stress in healthier ways. Fortunately I have a solid support system with my family and this forum. Looking forward to reaching the 2 week mark.
Wanted to give a little bit of an update before I post my check-ins. I had to go to Oklahoma with my dad to help clear out my grandmother's house. There was a lot of drama along the way with the siblings and it was getting irritating the whole time I was there. Last night, I went to go lay down and pulled up my phone and started chasing rabbits. I did NOT look at porn, but came across a lot of provocative photos and gifs on the internet. There were times I would get very slightly aroused, but nothing to write home about. During that time, I did not have a desire to masturbate and I realized something in the process as well: that being with my wife is so much more satisfying than photos and gifs on the internet. So, as soon as I got home from Oklahoma and got everything settled in, my wife and I had sex because we both missed each other very much. I am so thankful for this community and its fight against porn! With that, here are my check-ins: Thursday's Check-In Rank 121 Jedi Council Member Friday's Check-In Rank 122 Jedi Council Member Yesterday's Check-In Rank 123 Jedi Council Member Today's Check-In Rank 124 Jedi Council Member May The Force Be With You!