Day 121 no PMO. Deleted YouTube app on Friday. That’s also a major addiction for me. In fact, felt like I used YT more lately as a sub for PMO. After 3 days of no YT, I feel more significant urges to PMO. There’s a host of negative behaviors to eliminate and even more positive habits to make. I’m just taking it slowly and one habit at a time. Always keeping in mind that no PMO is the foundation, the main fort to hold secure. Even if it takes 2-5 years to completely turn my life around, I am committed to seeing this through. Consistent small changes maintained over the long haul will lay the groundwork for profound life changes. This isn’t quick fix. It’s the real deal. We’re playing the long game.
Day 6 : check in.. I am uruk Hai now @RiseToGreatness I must say in this streak i am really confident. My day was very productive.. I follow this mantra "done is better than perfect". So if I want something I say and push myself to do it and see what happens.. It works wonders.. I m more competitive.. I have this drive to excel in academic.. And that is so amazing. Today morning i had a relapse dream.. Sign of healing well Ya I am I will try that yin yoga someone talked over here, thanks for sharing Emotionally I am really healed.. 95% well that's good news It is just I Overthinking which is common with me in first 5 days.. I have also subscribed to the self improvement series by lavendaire. (dream life series) and I am enjoying the videos + journal writing.. You can search her on YouTube.. Trigger warning : she dresses decently but I don't know if her makeup will b triggering or not... And i m following mark quepets email series as well .. It is really nice ..
I decided after much contemplation to reset to day 8 from day 13. I did not like qualifying that I had peeked 8 days ago for 2-3 minutes before snapping out of it, especially since I had not had a full relapse in two and a half weeks, but I had reset a couple times, even though this last time was shorter. It came down to semantics and whether those other two times counted if I was not counting this last time, and since I counted those times, I have made the executive decision to be just over a week clean instead of nearly two weeks clean. I am still at the same point I was before, but being more consistent with my definition. Best, Mathman1994
I'm sorry brothers, I failed today. Universal man just uploaded a video about being a perfectionist and I think that's what happens to me. So I will try to focus on the progress instead of trying to do it all perfectly. Day 0
47 days done. Got to review my triggers plan, I can feel the addicted brain searching for a weakness it can exploit. Got to surf the urge.