@EndPornLiveLife Sorry to hear that. How it hapenned? What will you do better next time? We are going to kill the April challenge! Lets get into shape. Good to see you are still fighting! Champions stand up one more time! I also fucked up last night, but staying here for one more run.
Same here: I finished the 3-day challenge yesterday at 11:00 am. I started the 7-day challenge too, so yes, today is day one for me too. I am proud to be here, even if I have relapsed many times. I am back!
Day 1/7. By the way...what does everyone do if you finish say a 7 day challenge and want to continue on with a 14 day or 30 day challenge? Can you only start other longer challenges at Day 0 or can you keep going and just say "Day 8/14" since you just completed the 7 day challenge?
Good to know, thanks. The reason I asked because the rules for each challenge say you must start at 0 days.
Basically peeking. Searching on social media for tempting material. Which inevitably leads further. That's what started it. And that's what needs to change: not doing that... A few days ago it was the same, as well as testing my blockers. Sure, I added many many many sites to my blocklist, but it also let to a relapse, many hrs wasted, and many hrs of sleep lost. I sometimes wonder if I was better off before I even added blockers, because then I wasn't tempted to test them. I'll keep them for now though, just gotta not test them. Keep pushing @ToMMy.H. I like that: Champions stand up one more time!
What will you do to deal with stress in a more healthy way now and in the future? Day one in this challenge; day four overall. Last night, I started making love with my wife. She had a lot of trouble getting into it, and we had to stop because she couldn't. She explained that I have not shown intimacy much at all lately, so she is not feeling like I am even attracted to her. Hearing her say that made me very sad. I need to step up the intimacy with my wife and stop with the self-pleasuring. This is key to our relationship. This was obvious in the first place; I needed to pay attention to it in order to be conscious of it. She said that she knows that I love her and am invested in the relationship and our new house; she just doesn't feel like I am into her. I really am, but I have not expressed it-- ever. I have always masturbated and watched pornography instead. In order for her not to think I was just never going to show intimacy, that this was 'just how it is,' I told her that I had looked at pornography. That was hard, but I had made an agreement, in writing, that I would be honest and tell her if I relapsed. It took me several days of lying saying I had "been good," but I finally confessed last night. I have not done PM since turning 51 the other day. I hope to be able to say for the rest of my life that I stopped at 50. I feel pathetic saying it. This needs to stop now. I will do my best. Anyway, I wish everyone the best.
