Day 10 - Padawan. I´m recovering the benefits from my streak of 60 days. - More energy, so I wake up earlier in the morning without problem. - Less depression , more affection for other things in life - More attractive biologically to gals and more confidence. I saw a girl that seemed my age, and I knew she was attracted to me. That´s all, Still, I need to recover more mental clarity.
I made it to 34 days PMO free during February and the first half of March. A friend of mine was in town for a couple of days and we had sex once, thankfully with no PIED issues. She and I just want to stay friends so I haven't told her about my issues with PMO and PIED. The chaser effect got me a few days after she left town and I've been struggling to get past it ever since. I had a plan to go for lots of walks to avoid urges but I didn't carry them out. I was able to surf through a few urges by hanging out with friends and staying busy. I made it to another 9 days clean this past week but I relapsed and started binging over the past 2 days. The Fortify app has been helpful for tracking my progress and I can see the downward trend of PMO despite these recent relapses. I need to remember "Progress over Perfection." I've been negligent with coming back to these forums. I thought since I had a good streak going I could just focus exclusively on life outside of PMO. I now know while focusing on healthier habits is important, I also need to keep connecting with other people trying to get past PMO. Here's a video I found relatable and helpful. Hopefully it does the same for you:
Yo day 8 checking in, u ever want to compliment a girl but you don't want to flatter them but you end up saying something awkward instead? I had that today.