Today I will not use porn because it creates a status illusion that makes me think I'm actually doing something productive when really I'm just escaping my reality into a fantasy world.
What I meant was that I'm making my brain think that on some level I'm actually engaging in something that offers some sort of end result with a positive outcome but these are only the rationalizations of the part of me that's still hooked on PMO. But yeah productive is probably the wrong word.
Today I refuse to relapse because as amazing as it sounds (and it sounds great) I know I’m gonna be worse off for it in the long run. I must learn to deal with depression and stress without resorting to self sabotaging behavior. These are normal emotions and given some time they will pass on there own.
Today I will not use PM because, lately, I have been feeling confident and self-assured. I want that to continue.
Today I will not use porn because it goes against my values. Refusing to engage in PMO builds my integrity, respect and honesty.
Today I won't use porn because it is bad for my self-respect, and this affects how I feel about myself.
Today I will not watch porn because I happily trade-off the instant gratification for my long-term wellbeing.
Today i will not use porn because it makes my life shitty, and takes life and pride and happiness away from me.