Day 4 complete! The urges are still mounting. I found it harder to resist them today, but prayer was my chief weapon. Also, thoughts of my family. None of them have any idea about my masturbation addiction. I want to keep it that way, but even more, I want to get to the point where I have conquered this struggle and have nothing to hide from them. @Slider8 I did not write down my daily goals on paper, no, but I laid them out very specifically, with concrete benchmarks, in my mind.
Day 6 Uruk hai!!! Had a strong urge last night but i managed to ignore it.Very glad i did! Stay strong brothers!
Without actually undergoing the challenge, there is no way I could've get these lessons, these bits of knowledge when things seem bleak and have no ideea why, when the environment tries to take hold and when and how I can take hold back.
Day 2! Yesterday I mostly stayed outdoors as staying inside after a relapse would drain more energy to resist temptation than it will to just enjoy the warm weather. Added running 10 minutes before eating into my morning and I think it would work awesome! Today I am writing at least 150 words for one of my first blog posts!
Check in 8 days of NO PMO No P : 22 days Last day was a nightmare . The urges was so strong I thought my streak ends here, but I realized that whatever I need to achieve in life I need to feel the pain . without pain and struggle no milestone is ever achieved . I have two options there, either submit to my urges and cry and regret my remaining life and start that filthy loop again OR endure the pain and win over your soul , By the grace of God , I was able to overcome it. I feel blessed ! . But there is no time to feel safe , I need to pass many months to finally get out of this addiction once and for all.
Masturbated yesterday without fantasy. It's better than using porn, p-subs, or fantasy, but I still want to reboot from it.
I was ruining the P industry, and I will continue this time all the way! Who is starting this epic journey with me? We will leave the shire and not turn back until we have succeeded. I am excited to see which brethren will start this epic journey with me today. Day 1, trod on!
Day 30! One month and I can't believe I've reached it. This makes me hopeful for the future. But I think I'm entering the flatline. I've been feeling depressed and easily tired, my focus has gone away and I don't feel like doing nothing productive, my energy has also gone away. Is that the flatline? What should I expect and do? I don't want to relapse in due to that feeling of rejection.
first 24 hours down many more to go. feeling good today although im aware this is the "honeymoon phase" I know I need to stay vigilant and keep my eye on the prize. starting a very long journey but failure is not an option.
hang in there brother and know that this flatline shall pass in time, but if you start back up eventually you'll have to face this at one point. better now than later.... i cant wait till my one month milestone. keep going my dude. you're a big inspiration
3 days. Nice. Tracers should be gone. Prayer Prayed most of the chaplet of seven sorrows yesterday. Abstinence Sunday. No fasting. Rest Went for a round of golf last night. Up to late because of it. Got out though and sid healthy things. Exercise. Going to do 3 rounds of golf a week and walk most of them. did not exercise yesterday. Nutrition Saturday evening and Sunday are cheat time. Ate healthy at work yesterday. Drinking more water. Feels nice. Temptations. None to speak of. Was golfing. Seams if I keep myself busy I do good. Life’s good. Feeling good.
day 18 Awesome man , if appears another strong urge you can shout out here and we going to support you in some way. Days 6 and 7 are in many times difficult.
hi bro well, basically because when i do sex i experience withdrawal symphoms, not as bad as a pmo session though, but mildy bad. so when i do hard mode the reboot is way better and smoother. other reason, probably the biggest one, is i want to experience sexual emancipation. this a major threshold for me, and this is why i recommend it to everyone. in my opinion, and other opinions that i study on the matter, it´s important to one to totally abstain for a while in order to achieve mastery over sexual desire. this is important because we can´t have sex all the time (if we´re single, sick, etc...), so we must develop the ability to be chaste, accept it (if it´s the present situation), and transmute the sexual energy into productivity. yes, semen retention is a bit harder than nofap, especially the sense that we are missing out. so for this new attempt i´m gonna set my mind better for the goal. thanks my brother
Checking in Fellowship Well, in a turn of events, like i always do , i decided to stay. not in the same way though, i will definitely not return to the challenge because i will not reactivate the counter, but i will stay accountable with you my brothers and sisters Plus, someone needs to manage the challenge board, and it needs to be me . But i will be just a guy checking in, no time references whatsover. Well, good day today, although the usual withdrawal symphoms appeared (anxiety, fatigue, a bit of paranoia). sleep was good though, as i could find a proper replacement for coffee in the morning. for the taste i replace it with decaffeinated, and for the boost, i mix ginger with cinnanon. works like charm! it gives a boost but it doesn´t give agitation like coffee does and it doesn´t interfere with my sleep either have a great day Fellowship!!! Checking out.
Yeeeees! My counter has finally refreshed after all this time and effort. Who thought that a little more effort and intention than usual would lead to some results right?
You are a gentleman for responding so promptly and with such detail, thanks again @RiseToGreatness It does my heart very good to hear that you will not be leaving us completely but will stay in touch with the forum. You are the Ring bearer man!