Day 13, Holding true Fellowship. I have been extremely active these last two weeks and no signs of it letting up. Urges are getting to be a little more persuasive. No fishing and no intention of fishing. Best to you all Fellowship!
Day 7 complete! One week! This Orc is thinking about upgrading his job prospects--that Uruk-Hai life is looking very nice. @bob200 That sounds like some major emotions you're handling. It's sweet that you and your girlfriend are that supportive of each other, and as someone who feels something similar with his own parents, I'm glad to hear that you were honest and could talk directly with them. Good luck in Germany. We'll still be here to support you! @Ready_to_Stop How were you feeling after that drive? One thing that may have helped me be successful on this streak is having many goals. I like to set clear, specific goals for myself to achieve each day: spend so much time on this, work on that until I get to a certain point, and so on. What I've done lately is add more goals, not so that I overwhelm myself, or things that are so important that I'll be in trouble if I don't get them done, but minor things I'd like to add to my day like reading two extra chapters or running 30 extra minutes. I know it's more than I can do, but that way I will spend my day working productively and not wasting time, in the hope that maybe I can get to the extra goal anyway. There's no time for PMO in my life if I'm constantly working towards healthy things I'd rather do instead.
48 days. Spent another day with my friends at the countryside. When I got home in the evening and relaxed, I started to have some minor urges but nothing I can't handle.
Day 18 Crossing the brandywine river after 2 days will reach to old village of Bree. I am happy for that. Today I had wet dream so feeling little less energetic. In the morning today I was offered to perform an activity but couldn't perform due to social fear which is due to Long term use of PMO so became stressed and that stress in combination lack of energy due to wet dream made me depressed for some time because I always used to do PMO to relieve my stress in the past. I had managed it but I want to ask from you guys how you manage that type of stress?
@Gallade_Templar Drive home went fine. Long but fine. Very little urges yesterday. Just caught myself fishing (on here of all places) but didn’t see or read anything and it’s over now. Good luck today everyone. Day 147 No PMO.
day 0 Not proud about it. Fell to my oldest trigger. Came back to an empty house and just went to porn. Didn’t even think about it. After that I felt so bad that… I stayed and watched porn for an extra hour. Now I feel weak. But I’ve made plans to be out of the house all day while the house is empty. It’s not enough, but I did stopped PMO outside off the house so it’s a good start. Soon my life will force me to be alone in my house for a long time (moving into a new city) so I thought to myself that I should start practicing being at home alone. And I will do it, but I need to be clean for at least a week before I try something like that again. The first 72 hours are just the worse.
Congratulations King Elessar, High-King of Gondor and Arnor! We bow to you Now let´s climb the mountain my brother. Courage, we´re with you!!
day 68 No urges at least today. The urges on this days, technically they attack only at night now , when i am with the guard down. But surprise mothr** ***** i know that trick too.
Checking in Fellowship Feeling tired but at peace . no temptations and hesitations, and i expect flatline to begin at any day now. I hope you all are doing well in your paths. stay focus Have a great day!!!
it got the better of me and I ended my streak! I was slowly starting to punish myself for not doing certain tasks, eventually caved and punished myself to feel the drop of the relapse! I shall rise once again, and undergo this challenge with more intention than I previously had! Countdown Day 91 is on!