66 days – Paddeling down the river, you crossed The Gates of Argonath, The Pillars of Kings. Getting closer to become a Warrior ! This is where we fight
put it on paper bro. that´s what i do. sometimes i´m like "man, i got so much to do tomorrow, i don´t know how to do it, it´s too much", but when i sit at night and write the plan for the next day, everything falls into place. it´s amazing. so don´t worry about it bro. plan, and magic will happen
it´s probably withdrawal bro, it happens to all of us. stay firm in your strategy, and improve with the slip. keep your sleep, nutrition, and physical exercise in place and the withdrawal will be much lighter . and when going through bad days, you got to be patient. humility is one of the key factors that every rebooter has to develop
sorry to hear bro. it´s the second time (at least in my watch), that you slipped between days 100 and 200. so what really happened? i mean, i don´t believe it was only the dreams that made you slip. heck, you probably gone through much harder ordeals in the months before, and you didn´t slip. this. were you feeling solid in the last days? happy about your life? inspired? or just going through life and trying to survive? find the deep cause bro, or you´ll be bounded to repeat this kind´s of slips again. i think the root cause must be connected to dissastisfaction about present life, and the dreams were just the tipping point. but i´m just guessing. only you can dig out the truth. reflect bro. this is really important.
Some days Some days are easy others are hard, girls approach you other times they don't. Your girl one day is fine the next maybe not. Specially with girls and their changing nature, they change too fast. I've got use to the good, bad and bitter of life. They mix all the time, so I rather don't cling to happiness or sorrow I just flow with what's happening. Otherwise I'll get crazy if my well being depends on how I feel or how life or a girl treats me. Once again a bit more centered and wise thanks to girls. Bless them all.
Checking in Fellowship!!! Feeling good, althought brain fog payed me a visit today because of bad sleep last night. i will try to sleep better tonight. My brothers, i want to share a reflexion about my own experience and something that i learned with Universal Man. The unknown. Most of us are addicted for a very long time, and unfortunatelly some of us, like me, almost don´t remember how to live without social anxiety, to have regular motivation, good mood and energy. but most of us don´t remember how life was without PMO, that´s the truth. and when we, in the reboot process, enter uncharted territory (new lenghts in sobriety), there´s a common fear on "how to live without PMO". how to actually live in the unknown. just like in "shawshank redemption" movie about long term prison inmates. “He´s institutionalized. These walls are funny. First you hate 'em, then you get used to 'em. Enough time passes, you get so you depend on them. That's institutionalized.” no matter how much damage the addiction have caused us, there´s always some fear of living the future without it. it has become part of us. what i learn, and experience, is that the best way to overcome that fear is to be confident in oneself. trust yourself. you already know that life is 1 million times better without porn and masturbation. now you just need to trust yourself to follow that path for life. and the best way to trust yourself is to be coherent, do what you say, follow your strategy and your plan. assume your responsabilities. become a man of word. if you become coherent, you will trust yourself because you will see yourself as someone trustworthy! "this guy doesn´t talk, he does". and when you feel confident, it´s easier to face new territories and life challenges. so this is not about a leap of faith (althought some courage is necessary), it´s about hard work and dedication . the hard work and dedication that you already know. that brought you here in the first place. so follow your strategy brothers and no fear can stop you.
Brothers I'm back. I was tempted by the ring for the past 2 weeks. God-willing this time will be the last time I embark on this journey. We're all in this together brothers.
Thanks brother, hope to survive it. Well maybe it has something to do with having everyday morning wood for a long time which made me used to it and slacking to act when will power had a word.
Thanks bro...I thought about it and came to another possible cause-I have changed my morning routine(today) and last two or three days felt sick and was taking aspirin and ibuprofen (they might have messed with my brain somehow) I wouldn't use words solid, happy and inspired but rather worried, greedy and a bit hopeful-someone who believes things are possible but fails to live them out....for years(somewhat miserable failure but at the same time somewhat hopeful Dum spiro spero)
Sorry to hear, man. Congrats on a long streak, though! When you think about it, one reset in 150 or so days is pretty good, something I used to not even be able to imagine. I don't know if that's the right thing to say or not, but you always lift me and the other Fellows up when we've slipped or been slipping. Get back in there, you got this!
Day 24 So busy, and yet, can't seem to get back to work. Had a good talk with a colleague, though, and a cold shower this morning that helped with some things. But on we go. One day at a time for this hobbit.
Nice bro!!! You did it! Try to remember your one week ago self, fearing that you wouldn't do it. But you did! About the dream, it happens. Actually, it probably happened just because you were determined not to fall, even though you were also afraid of slipping. Our mind works to give dreams when it knows that we won't do it by ourselves, so it actually healthy. Just take care with the chaser effect, this is really dangerous.