Day 9! I'm taking recovery more seriously now than I have in the past. Determined to finally win this battle!
Abortion Two weeks ago I performed an abortion to a close relative; I’m a physician, she is very young, she had a delayed period of one week or less. The pregnancy happened because of a one night stand, she took the after day pill but still got pregnant. The after day pill can fail if you are already ovulating because the pill works by stopping ovulation. She was very drunk too. She is not always like this, I know her, but alcohol is bad for a girl. Still irresponsible do. This abortion was especially troublesome for me, she was a bit lonely those days she even texted me before it happened saying hi and to talk. She wanted to spend time with me but I was having my head in somewhere else. I guess if I hanged out with her this would have not happened. I know it is not my fault and if it didn’t happened this time it could have happened another time. Conclusion: -Learn about contraception if you are planning to have sex -Don’t be a drunk and don’t mix alcohol with sex
Surgery and love Some days ago I made a choice of being a surgeon also the next day I told the girl I’m dating to be my girlfriend she said yes, it is the first time I say this to a girl, she will be my first serious girlfriend, I have dated before but never took it seriously. It is been some stressful weeks also if you consider the abortion I performed to my close relative. I was a bit at shock. Right now I realize life is quite complex and unpredictable, the only thing to do is to remain cool and keep going, there is no room to hesitation or to have doubts because if you act based on fear, laziness or your own rigid ideas this can not only hurt yourself but it can hurt others as well.
Welcome again to Hobbit rank my brother . Yes, this time you will make 90 and beyond!!! We only stop at the fires of Doom. Let´s go my brother, one walk at a time!!!!
don´t worry bro. if you had doubts, it probably hasn´t the time to aproach her. just keep improving yourself, do your thing. when the right time comes, you will know. because it will no longer be a matter of "need" but a matter of "want" here´s another great video for you
Checking in Fellowship!! Feeling tired and foggy today. on the last days my level of peace and confidence were roof high, unfortunatelly on friday night i open a window for a drink with the "pals". well, one drink on friday, turn out to be 2-3 on sunday, plus lot´s of sugary, so now i pay the price and feel like a pmo zombie again. not as bad as before for sure, my anxiety is still low, but very far from the optimum performance i was feeling on the last days . well, since i´m in withdrawal pain again, i commit myself yesterday to completely cut sugar and alcohol for 1 year of rebooting, with a level of vigilance close to the pmo addiction itself. i will only allow these substances, in minimum quantity, on Christmas, New year´s eve, and Easter. my commitment is for 1 whole year of PMO reboot. You are my witnesses Fellowship . no more slacking, no more making excuses. Checking out. Have a great day!!! "Quitting is the anti-depressant I needed. 9 months ago I was a 25-year old university drop out, working a job I hated and depressed. A few months after I quit porn, I got my superpowers. I did a lot of things for the first time, including kissing a girl within two minutes of meeting her and being invited to another girl's apartment. I think that I don't have depression anymore. There still are downhills, but nothing like before with no energy for anything and suicidal thoughts. My secret? In the last month I've used internet for maybe an hour. I have decided to start university once more in September even though I have to pay for everything myself."
Current streak: 532 days no PMO, semen retention How to recover after a relapse Since I remember I always worked out, I was in very different sports and always tried to achieve high levels of performance. I used to relapse max. 4 MO then I refrained because if I kept doing it, the practice of the sport I was doing will be hell and I would have not been able to perform because lack of energy and mental focus caused by too many orgasms. PMO was not sustainable, so I didn’t PMO out of need and survival. This helped me for 20 years to keep streaks of a minimum of 3 months and usually of 6-12 months. Conclusion: try working out searching high levels of performance
Wuhuuu! The weekend has passed and I moved over the 30 days! Feeling pretty good about reaching the big 3 0 again, unlike that time I reached 30 years of existence. Anyway, getting better and better. Cold showers are still a thing, the workout is hardly skipped, nutrition is kinda edgy and mind control becomes a thing again.
40 days – You try to pass through Caradhras but the PMO forces were strong there. You make a detour to the Dwarven Realm of Moria.
I’ve been sloppy with my check-ins lately. I feel the need to write details that may not be necessary to write everyday, more important to just check-in with a quick message to stay accountable if I don’t feel like writing an essay lol. So here I am, checking in to say I’m on the path and things are going OK atm
Day 27 Been dealing with some avoidance tendencies today. In six minutes, I am going to write for ten minutes, non-negotiable. Then, I am going to work on an application and send some things in the mail. About an hour from now, I'll meditate for a few minutes. Took a cold shower this morning, counted to 75, slowly.