Has anyone lived their fetishes out, only to be left disappointed?

The thought of potentially living out my fetishes (cross dressing, anal play and other sex toys, buying used unwashed shoes and socks from women) arouses me, because it makes me excited for the future

But maybe I'm just heading towards a big disappointment?

Has anyone lived their fetishes out, only to be left disappointed, like in "That's not what I've imagined" or "I actually don't like this fetish at all"?

Maybe after all, it's the thought of living it out itself which is arousing me, but not actually doing it?

 

I actually was into cross dressing since like age 6 I guess (that's the age where I started to love pantyhoses), when I was like 11 I started to wear my mums nylon knee high socks when my parents were at work (basically only stopped doing that because I grew taller and I'd 100% rip them accidentally). I only started to watch actual porn at age 16, before that it was only those soft porn YouTube videos of women showing off her nylon feet and nothing more

I remember once finding my moms (non nylon but also some other soft material) long stockings as a teen, and when I put them on, I was so horny that i basically ejaculated hands free (1st and only time that has ever happened to me outside of a wet dream)

This is why I'm confused, as it's not something 100% porn induced, at least the cross dress part.

If it comes to anal play: I've always enjoyed pooping. No kidding, especially when the poop is about to come out but doesn't. I think anal play would just be kind of like that maybe?

If it comes to used shoes and socks from women: that's actually something which came with time, could be porn induced, but on the other hand it's a way to become intimate with someone, you know, to smell the other person

So idk. Maybe it's natural for me and it'd be a great fulfillment. Maybe it's just the fantasy turning me on. But as I said, I already lived out cross dressing partially and it was great. But idk, would I like to actually cross dress like sissies do?

 

Damn.

I actually thought about buying online meetings, not with domes, but like with foot fetish content creators (basically paying for an online foot worship session)

But if I think about it, the potentially bad video quality can make the experience seem like a waste of money

 

I'd never talk with anyone about what I'm into, not even about my "common" fetishes like pantyhose nylon feet etc

 

No, only on weekends.

 

I'm the exact opposite, I've wanked so much to P that I've got enough of virtual women, and want real women (and like to really have a pair of female feet in hosiery to play with, and not behind a screen)

 

I mean, yeah, I've got a thing for feet and nylon because my aunt was rubbing my pp with her nylon foot when I was 4 years old. I think she meant to rub my belly but accidentally also rubbed my pp

But pantyhoses? No idea why. Up until I was 6, I actually used to wear them when it was cold (but those were those simple unisex kids pantyhose, with Winnie-the-Pooh). I hated to wear them as the material always was itchy. When I stopped wearing them (and started wearing long underpants during winter just like I do today), paradoxically my pantyhose fetish has began, me fantasizing about wanting to open a pantyhose shop or to ride motorcycles in pantyhoses (I thought motorcycle riders wore pantyhoses)

So idk. It's just weird.

 

Longjohns is the long underwear I'm wearing up till today when it's winter, but I've never associated it sexually

Why I like nylon pantyhose? Because they are soft and comfortable. Why do I like to wear this as it's soft and comfortable? Because it makes me feel safe, too. A better word would be i think "grounded", if I'd wear them I'd feel more grounded.

Cross dressing and all those fetishes would make me forget everything, all my problems would go away. When I cross dress, I can even forget about my whole persona and his problems. When I worship feet (the simplest form would be to buy used socks from women and sniff them for hours) it would make me forget all my troubles, too. It's like lucid dreaming, you create your own fantasy world and you forget about your problems.

You think I've ever thought about my school problems when I've been wearing my mums knee high nylon socks? All I was able to think of was "fucking finally". Then I grew taller and after I ripped one accidentally (have a big shoe size while my mum has got like size 5 I guess) i stopped completely.

If you're fucked anally by a prostate massage vibrator, you only think about that (and to think about being careful not to destroy your rectum). If you pretend to be a female, send pics of your nylon feet on reddit and see that other guys think you're a woman and compliment you etc, that's the only thing which matters at the moment

It's kind of like with cigarette smokers, they know that when they smoke a cigarette, they've got 5 minutes free of all stress and problems, only them and a cigarette, and that's why it's also hard for them to stop smoking.

 

That'd be the plan once I'll have my own flat and a job. Basically nonstop PMO sessions and sissy stuff from Friday afternoon till the night from Sunday to Monday