The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 3

 

Day 265 no PMO.

 

Day 2.

 

Check in day 39.

 

Day 9. Feeling good and hopeful!

 

Day 66! My sleep schedule got screwed up due to going overdrive and starting to burn out. I'm trying to not sleep today until 10-11pm max as I used to, quite tempted to sleep though, so I might take a cold shower to get that energy back. I am sure that if I take a nap now, the 6 hours remaining for today are going to be totally unproductive.

 

Almost relapsed.
I'm writing this on the toilet. I want in with the full intend to pmo.

I've entered an adult site and just froze. At the same time I've just started singing to myself "I want to break free".
It took me way to much time, and I wasn't even needed to have a phone in the toilet in the first place.

But I left that site and now I'm writing this post.
Maybe I should reset. But to be honest, I don't want to. The negative side of having that 0 days is the part that tells me that I doesn't matter if I PMO because I have nothing to lose.

And on some level, I want to see what happened to me right now as a win and not as a lose. I was mindful, I stopped to reconsider and I've did not "use the ring" I am Galadriel

 

Day 41
I still cant believe that I have reached 40+ days! I guess that it's my personal record and counting!!!

 

Not looking forward to being at work all day, but tomorrow I will be able to get this all sorted... I've been feeling a bit of blue balls randomly and my skin is acting up. I have this weird skin condition that pops up suddenly at times. Now I think it's probably stress related.

 

Day 4

 

Hi folks! Can I join?
As you see, I'm already an elf
No, actually I'm on day 2. I thought it would be good to take as a goal to beat my recent longer streak of 7 days. So then thats urukhai in this challenge, right? But I'm talking about no porn days. I'm not so good at mo. But I'm trying. Is there a chance that I can get better step by step or anything. Maybe allow mo without fantasy in the first weeks, or something like that?

 

Day 2 - Relapsed

I'm not feeling too upset about this one, just trying to be kind and forgiving to myself since this winter is only getting colder so far so I think it's gonna get worse before it gets better. One positive thing I've noticed is that what I'm actually viewing it getting less extreme so I think I'm slowly beginning to let go of the kinks and fetishes that I've developed through escalation over the years.

 

483 days

 

Day 8 this evening.

Uruk-Hai, never say die!

Had a good weekend w/ friends and family.

 

Day 273

 

50 days Moria, the greatest Dwarven Kingdom, is before you. With a beard and a axe, you´re a Dwarf now.

I'm so grateful I came this far. Second longest streak this year, third longest streak ever

Good to have you back @RiseToGreatness !

This time I'll make it to the 90

 

Day 11 complete.

I am waking up tired, my immunity is weakened once more, maybe I gave too much of my strenth during the workout on friday.

48 days without porn.

 

Day 10

Double digits! I wasn't as stressed out today as I thought I would be. Definitely a lot of underlying anxiety over my rent situation though. I will contact them first thing tomorrow and hope I can fix this. If things don't work out I don't have a backup plan. If I had to guess I think it will work out though.

I think I will just have a warm bath to relax before I have to go to bed in a couple hours. I got some urges, but I'll get through it.

 

You're doing super good. I remember when I first showed up here we were neck and neck for a long time. You will definitely make 90 this time at the rate you're going!