Ahhh shit, here we go again!

A while ago I was on here and found pretty good success, I think I got to like 120 days or something. Not sure what caused it but I relapsed and haven't looked back, well until now that is!

I remember the struggles last time and expect to have them again so I'm hoping to use my experience to my advantage. Here is what I'll be doing and I would love for anyone reading this to join me on this (difficult) journey:

1. Start with low goals then aim higher as I crush them! I am only aiming for 10 days fap free to start but when I get there I will set a new goal.

2. Each mile stone I will reward myself, progressively with bigger rewards at notable achievements. 10 - Eat out for dinner, 30 - cheat weekend from running, 60 - not sure yet, 100 - vacation!!!

3. Daily Updates: every day post my update, coming one here was a reminder of what I was doing and knowing I had to post the truth tomorrow helped me fight urges so this will be the first thing I do each morning moving forwards!

And finally I would love to have some people to walk this journey with. I remember the most helpful thing last time was knowing someone else was coming every couple of days to check how I was doing. I would love to be a part of your journey, and have you as a part of mine, we can share this thread or you can start your own either way let's walk this path as part of a community.

 

Day zero I guess, not a full day yet but I'm posting every morning regardless. I'm doing fine, building resolve and being in here again helps. It's weird I feel like I almost use it as a way to fill time when I am bored. So I'm going to make sure to have things to work on/do when I am bored!

 

Day 1 down! Had hard moments as expected but have a reason to stop with this forum so keep at it!

 

Day 2: no problem, thoughts but no urges. Found out I have COVID... Bummer but just worries about what to do through this isolation to keep my mind off of p.

 

Day 3: def had an urge, I am pretty isolated rn which is hard for me and not helping. Still staying strong though.

 

Day 4&5: hard times as expected for this phase. Still going strong though.

 

Day 6: was driving ALL day so no time honestly. The rest of this week I'm going to be completely isolated though so I think it's going to be tough.

 

Day 7 come and gone the urges are really strong rn which sucks, gotta get over the hump!

@ShotDunyun thanks, it's always nice to know I'm not taking this challenge alone!

 

Day 8: It's tough, If I remember correctly this period lasts for a week or two at least which is not fun and I wish it would end, but the only thing that will do that for me is time, so I just gotta stick it out.

 

Day 9: Yeah I'm using it to try to be productive I raked leaves in my yard for an hour or two, went for a run, lifted, did some yoga. It's just hard sometimes. Still going strong though!

 

Day 10 wahoo first milestone reached, get to go out for dinner tonight!

 

Day 11 & 12! Still at it, really easy at times really hard at other time. Kinda weird and frustrating, can't let myself go on autopilot.

 

Day 16: oops been busy and forgot to post but I'm still at it!

 

17 days: I'm bad at remembering to post but I'm still going!!!

 

18 days: idk what to say, still at it

 

Thanks @End it I have been curious how other people hanle sex/intimate relations with a partner. I feel like having the orgasm might make it harder to resist masterbation but at the same time I don't see anything wrong with being sexually active and not masturbating, I can't imagine it makes not jerking it any easier is really my point I guess. Regardless, thanks for the support!

19 days!!!!