Last night I relapsed after 83 days of hard/monk mode, I was doing so well with no Porn mo, no orgasm, no sexual fantization of any kind whatso ever, I din't even stare at any live girls in public or at work for the purpose of strict self desclipne, I decided to give up this nasty evil habit for life time, no just a 90 day challenge or a trend but for life. Every time I has a urge to release I immediately logged on to this site and read successful stories and benefits and harms of Pmo, from great inspirational guys like soaring eagle. After the first month it became so easy to control the urges, changing subject in my mind in seconds with power, brain felt like a slave to me, I called the shots no other way around I felt so good and relieved, worked out regulary brisk walk and yoga etc Face became attractive, wide jaw and full of glow., hair started to feel thick the super powers are indeed real. Anxiety almost vanished, I smiled more often. I told my self after a decade of abuse even though I only masturbated once in a week, with the same vanilla, soft core ebony porn with ebony African American rap models and hiphop girls, never changed the genre neither did I increased the intensity, I always whacked off to same girls for 10 years, without having any personal, social or carrier problems. but after all I realized whats wrong is wrong and that I should stop. Started reboot felt amazing on that journey but then after completing 83 days hard mode I relapsed last night I watched some ebony porn and mo:'d once felt awful turned of my phone cried and went to sleep
Thanks mjs0344 Just had been experiencing awful Insomnia for quite a few days for some unknown reasons, last night couldn't sleep until past 3 am, urges came I could have easily fought but decided to give in due to being annoyed and slightly upset which I now regret,
Sorry to hear that but most guys here would do just about anything to get past a month! I know I would! I've just gone 3 days and already my brain is sloshing around in what feels like a head full of semen. I just want it to stop, it's so frustrating so you are an inspiration !
Yup, true. Not all progress is lost. One of the downsides of viewing just the days is that your counter going back to 0 means all progress is lost when it really isn't. Not sure how often you were doing PMO before you started but once in 3 months is pretty good. Just learn from your mistakes and pick it back up. You're making great progress. I would love to be almost 3 months free of this.
Oh I don't view porn, I joined here for masturbation. I want to quit masturbating befor I get into porn or before I take masturbation into a relationship. I'm a virgin and afraid that if I don't master this soon I'll be in trouble.you know? Will you help me and do you know any things besides cold showers, working out a bunch and keeping thought S pure that can hep Please? I also wear layers of clothes to sleep to decrease of he chances of giving in when I'm half awakened
Ah ok, well still just MOing once in 3 months is still pretty great. Honestly I wouldn't be able to help you since you are way ahead of me and doing much better than I am. Maybe someone else can though.
Thanks brother, wish you all the best, may you achieve your desired level of success. As of now, I have reset my couter, my day 1 starts tommorow morning, hopefully this time I'll outWitt the devil longer than my previous Streak which was 83 days of Abstinence hardmode
Your brain and your soul have realized about these 83 days for sure. You have said all the benefits. Don't think that you have lost them because of the relapse. Try to focus on continuing a new streak without relapsing again. Falls are normal, the problem is when we don't get up. As @mjs0344 said, try to see the cause of the relapse, the triggers, etc, and think about how you can stop them to happen in the future. Temptation will come for sure, and we can never take our progress for granted. But you were doing pretty well my friend, you can do it again. Courage!
