Hello all! I have refrained from posting in here as for the past few months I have been in a bad way and not been able to maintain any streak, relapsing nearly every day. Things are turning around and all of a sudden I have 5 days, so I'm checking in as a youngling once again! May the force be with us.
I have been away for awhile and trying not to relapse but I wasn't able to resist. Lately though I've been in a better place in my life so I think with conscious attention and caution I just might be able to kick the habit this time. I relapsed last night and I think I did so because I wasn't being careful to avoid triggers, and that if I did get an urge or a porn image flashed through my mind I wasn't careful to change my thoughts so that I wouldn't become overwhelmed. So, I wish to abstain this time for a month as a goal to hit. And I will be careful to avoid triggers, and that if I do feel urges or a porn image flashes through my mind then I will think of a loud flashing siren in my head, or do some psychological tricks like tell myself to not think of a pink elephant and I wouldn't be able to help myself but to think of a pink elephant. Okay here goes, Youngling day 0.
Wow man I remember back this past year you were relapsing every few days or so, but now you seem to be getting the hang of it. Keep it up man. I'm hoping to shoot for a month right now.
I guess my opinion on this is uncommon. Personally I don't care about flat line or even notice it. My objective is to live life to my potential, where is flat line in all of that? It's just a process of rewiring and rebalancing anyway so there's nothing to worry about.
This is the way. I feel a lot more hopeful this time around to kick this habit. I'm in a better position with myself lately in controlling my other habits, I think it's just a matter of conscious intention to get this habit under control to kick it for good.
