I've just watched an old video of me in 2016. I look nothing like me and I forgot everything I've done in the past. I can't even remember what I've done yesterday or today. I feel like something is wrong with me.Brain chemistry change due to pmo or the reboot. I feel lost and confused. Why my reboot is harsh? I used to be hopeful to start nofap in 2014. Now I'm confused.... I feel like I'm a different person. I'm in crisis for Christ Sake...
Hey buddy -- how are you doing now? Have you gotten help and noticed any improvements since you posted this? Please let me know.
The memory may not be accessible right now, but it's there. We're numbed by PMO so that has a lot to do with it, even if you remember you may not feel the good times you've enjoyed but in the larger scheme of things it's temporary. As far as rebooting being rough, it's important to recognize there will be bumps along the road. Even though there's a lot of people doing this it's clear most have no more a plan other than "don't P/PMO" and don't really address the *how*. A lot of the posts end up being a description of the problem rather than a possible way to solve it. It may take some trial and error, with people reporting back but it can be done. The hopeful feeling by itself doesn't get us that far, ideally I'd like to see people use that window of time to get smarter with their approach rather than just ride it until it's gone, and then they're not going to feel as motivated to try things. But even if it may be slow going once that glow wears off we can try the same things and sort it out, it just won't feel as good (to say the least) and the problem is when being optimistic in the beginning people have this false sense that they don't need anything else other than being optimistic, so that time ends up being wasted.
There are improvements but they are so subtle. Any relapse from p is not good for me. I'm still bed ridden half journey. Body screaming from pain, cracking noises and sores. Overall it's a painful experience.....
Sounds like a hard reboot for you. If I'm not mistaken don't you have a journal... sounds very familiar with a journal I read not long ago. The person was referring to withdrawals they are suffering from for a long time and it included the symptoms you just mentioned. Personally I can definitely report memory problems. Sometimes I would struggle to remember certain words and certain stages of my life. And there are numerous other issues physically and mentally I've had for years now. It was only when I found this site in 2014 where everything made sense but unfortunately still having trouble staying clean. I'm 10 days in so still early days. Wishing you all the best
Bad News: I have relapsed this morning to P. I couldn't sleep and done the forbidden.I was 3 days away from completing 8 weeks of no mo and 4 weeks of no porn.
