Today the Panic Button saved me. I was idle for an hour int he afternoon and this strong urge kicked in. I wanted to see some hot pictures. Even I started searching. Then somehow I stopped and came to NoFap website. First thing I saw was the Panic button, clicked it and clicked on emergency button. It was very difficult. I can feel the urges getting bit stronger. But I also feel that I can handle them. And NoFap really feels much better. Don't want to give up on this...
day checking in: Warrior of Gondor The rank that gives me more troubles, this time will be different, feeling with more motivation and determination.
81 days Fellowship! Not in a good mood today, i got back to work, wake up early, and my batteries are really low. i was tired and demotivated all day. Some memories of my father resurfaced . Still, i tried to be productive. On the contrary, the cravings for porn rose strongly so i´m keeping everything light and away from danger. Have a nice day my friends. Checking out. "I want to see the wild country again before I die, and the Mountains; but he is still in love with the Shire, with woods and fields and little rivers. He ought to be comfortable here."
Day 1 Here again, I did't make post for some few days, because I was on tinder (a trigger for me), so I don't know why but I didn't have the desire to publish. But again here . Have a nice day my brothers and keep strong.
Alright! Set an alarm and remembered that it is the time. The situations I'm in are not the best right now, but the journey continues... Slowly but surely!
day 16 hello Fellowship! today, uncle Bilbo gave me Sting, the Elven sword. And let me tell you, dear Fellowship, IT IS BURNING VERY BLUE RIGHT NOW. the temptations aren't strong, but what's going through my mind is. I'm not seeing P scenes, but my mind is replaying sexual encounters I've personally been in with women. I recently wrote about a girl with whom I was involved with and with whom I made peace... my mind is revisiting that time with her. *facepalm* there was so much more quality to that relationship than just what we did in bed. it's frustrating that that's what my mind wants to relish right now. we're otherwise doing all right. we can get past this.
End of Day 3 NOW! Now I wanna get hyped. This streak needs to blow up this time. Im ready. EDIT: Writing my personal Journal here on "nofap" seems to help me a lot these days I always wanted to write it down in my personal book. But for some reason its easier for me to write it here (where evryone can read it). Maybe its some kind of release. Im glad again to have this opportunity.
Day 116 A lovely day; got a good amount of work done, went to the gym, and had an amazing curry cooked by a friend in the evening. As a group we watched an episode of Naked Attraction as a laugh, and honestly I’m just horrified at the state of TV today. Our culture is so obsessed with sex that it’s infiltrated mainstream TV, which will only make things worse. I can’t recommend watching it, even as a joke, and the whole evening reminded me why we’re all fighting this battle - so we can be free.