hey guys... Im back... Yesterday was Day 0 Today is Day 1 I feel numb Im quite ashamed but I was right before giving up on nofap and the whole routines and stuff... I wasnt able to reach what I want this month ... and even this year yet... already half of the year is over again... I feel like Im not making progress in life and with NoFap it seems to be the same... But I feel way worse than before ( after a couple of days gaming and fapping without restrictions) now... So NoFap was and IS worth it... I wanna rejoin - I wanna try again - I dont wanna give it up here - that would feel so wrong I go further - it cant stay like that. EDIT: Set all Counters back to zero - I will count again next month but I wanna change my priorities. NoFap has priority now!!! As well as things I havent reached before (yet) : Daily (can be simple) Evening-Routines and reloading morning routines. It wasnt good not to look on my computer/series/online times... I was spending way too much time lately there ( again). Though it would not help to cut it out completely. Therefor I set a limit : 7h/week and only in the time between 6pm-9pm. I wont be usin' my computer before these times and I'll try to make some overall media detox. Dunno if these changes will help but its worth a damn try. Check-In time will be 9pm (here in the forum). To stay accountable I will (ofc) talk aboute these things daily: 1. PMO - Free 2. Routines 3. Journaling 4. Timers and Limitations Greets out - Hope you are all well so far^^
Thinking porn can calm your sexual urges is like thinking drinking salty water from the ocean will calm your thirst
Dawn of the 101st day. Temptations abound. It's hard not to aroused when I think of my fiancee. We are waiting for marriage to have sex so that should come as no surprise. Another difficulty is to not feel guilty or shameful about it. Considering my porn past I'd say I'm more conscious about it than if I would be otherwise. @Gallade_Templar Onward to the first day!
Day 23 Low urges yestarday, some bad thougths. Remebering my exgirlfriend some part of me still regret about leaving her but the other part know that was the correct choice. Today the thougths are less strong. Worked out and took a cold shower. I reached my biggest strike until now! and I comming for more. If I have to suggest something is: LEAVE SOCIAL NETWORKS, it is somthing that really helps me in this way. Keep strong my brothers.
A couple great documentaries have been posted here an the past few days. As a result I now have two cautions to post about from my own search of "Raised on Porn" (the first posted documentary) on YouTube. 1) When scrolling down the search results I come across a playlist labeled "Raised on Porn". The thumbnail, in my mind, is definitely pornographic in nature. Aside from maybe four videos in the playlist which appear to be documentaries related to the harmful effects of porn, the thumbnails of the majority of the other videos appear to have a sort of sexual or erotic tone to them. I'll freely admit, my checking the playlist wasn't done with completely honourable intentions. Since the warning sirens were blaring in my head I never clicked any of the videos. We all have to be careful as we never know when a temptation will pop up during our innocent travels. Posting about it here is probably the best thing I can do to keep anything from taking hold. In may ways, the unintentional exposure and keeping it a secret is what sends many of us down the porn hole as a child. 2) Here's an interview with a serial killer on the night before his execution. He both iterates he doesn't blame porn for what he did and mentions how it's an addiction there was an escalation from softcore to hardcore and eventually violent porn. From then on the escalation went from fantasy to reality. He killed people, I didn't. I do not feel the urge to kill people but I'm also not going to be naive and say it could never happen. Given the right circumstances I easily could have became or could become a serial killer. Perhaps it is the grace of God I never went there. The biggest thing I'm taking from his words are he does not blame the pornography for his actions. For any of us, not blaming pornography should be a huge step in our recovery.
Checking in at noon. Blue balls and back pain are making the day really hard. I know that MOing would aliviate the pain, but I'm single minded about it: I won't do it.
21 pm - checkin' out ...this day was strange - fog in my head never seemed to be that strong before.. I did some meditation and cleaned up the whole apartment. Im on my way to bed and evening routine now... Tomorrow will be Day 2 and the first day where I'll startm with the new plan. Have a good sleep evrybody!
Checking in. Not much to report, other than that at a little walk at 12, my mind was quite fogged up. I then heard a podcast about the circadian clock, and i am now going to go for litlle walk first thing in the morning, to wake it up. Check it out, Andrew Huberman was the podcast host.
Checking, Had a good day today, I went to the beach with my wife in the morning. Also I've started to prepare for the interviews for the possible new job. So NoFAP can definitely help me with this, I also trying to do dopamine detox, so I'm on top of my game. When I'm doing dopamine detox, I'm feeling much more smarter then when I watch useless youtube videos or reading political news
Day 179 A good day at work and packing down my flat, but my car broke down and I had to call out a mechanic. Thankfully all was resolved fairly promptly, but not cheaply! Feeling in control of my urges; a video came up on YouTube with some women acting suggestively and I remembered the effect this used to have on me, but this time I felt nothing. Not an excuse to be reckless, but nice to know things have improved.
Day 1 complete! I've left the Nazgul phase behind me, an important first step. Lots of brain fog, headaches, exhaustion today. I can't say with certainty that they're related to my relapse but I'd be surprised if they're entirely unrelated. I also need to get on top of my eating habits again. The past couple weeks I've been consuming more sugary drinks and eating more desserts than I normally would. A general loss of willpower in all areas. St. Catherine of Siena, pray for us!
Day 20 complete I am still dealing with looking at/checking out women problem. My goal for now is to stop doing that. But I don’t have a strategy yet. I am open for suggestions. Not looking at any digital arousing content is going well for 20 days.
Day 15 as a Hobbit complete! My journey has begun! Yesterday was not the best day, but it was a good day... caught myself looking at and actively searching for pretty girls on Instagram! This always seems to happen when things start feeling good. I shall be careful. I plan on having an even better day! Cheers! "Speak Life!" Today, I am victorious!