I need help

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by mohaimen, Aug 2, 2022.

  1. mohaimen

    mohaimen Fapstronaut

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    Hi guys so I joined nofap 2021 of April and from there on when I joined I had a 1 and 1/2 year streak which I broke that streak in June 2022 recently you know I felt terrible cause I broke a long streak but things became worse after breaking it on June I moved on and stayed away for a month and two days now which comes to this on a Friday on July 29th I beat once I reset my streak and then again on Sunday, July 31st I beat once and today I beat 4 times and Idk what to do like I lost sight of what I'm supposed to be doing and Idk what to do from this point on and I'm turning 16 in 4 days and I'm not even looking forward to my birthday cause I don't even feel like existing you know I thought I changed but I didn't change for shit and like I'm growing older just become worse and now idk what to do from here after beating 4 times today. Idk how to feel. Any comment would help I'm seriously lost and going through an endless hole idk what to expect anymore
     
  2. voltex

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    First, I would say a year and a half streak at 15 is a pretty strong thing, when I was 15 I know I didn't have that type of power at all
    Second, if you can try to resist it, then resist the urge with every last bit of strength you have, otherwise the more you binge, the more that all your progress from a year will be erased, one relapse is not the end and a single relapse does not undermine all the progress you made but multiple relapses in a short amount of time will
    Also, Happy Early Birthday :emoji_muscle::emoji_muscle::emoji_muscle:
     
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  3. DetroitRok

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    Put a hard stop to that binge. You’ve gotta get back up and start another streak. It won’t be easy, but it’s worth it. Don’t let this addiction take your vitality and confidence! You’ve got a beautiful life ahead, PMO will only numb you out so you don’t enjoy it.
     
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  4. mohaimen

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    ok I will try I yet did it again 4 times idk why I just its so hard
     
  5. mohaimen

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    yea I basicaly lost all my progress and i did it 4 times in one day including today too I really dont know what to feel
     
  6. voltex

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    I would be proud because you did go quite a long time without PMO, and I wouldn't say you lost all your progress, but you did lose quite a good amount and will lose more if you keep binging
    The way I do it is I focus one day at a time, if I relapse then I just try to go the rest of the day without PMO
     
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    thanks
     
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    I am still trying to figure out how to reply on my phone. Yeah man, I’m 38 and I started looking at porn when the internet was first coming out. I had got a hold of my brothers VHS tapes. And man, ir sucks. I cave too easily. My triggers are lonely nights. I don’t even feel an urge and I try to go three nights without PMO, sometimes the urge is there and I go for MO, but last two nights I just caved for PMO. I feel terrible after doing it. You are not getting old man. You are just starting. My suggestion is to work on a 30 day system. Do something different to change your habits. I think when I was your age I could masturbate twice a day, but four times is a lot. What are triggers? 16 is the peak of your puberty years. You are not done by far. Your testosterone is raging. It was for me and it is for you. Focus on getting something like a little part time job, go to the gym, but that will actually get your blood pumping and make you want to do it even more. Sigh. I say If you have to nut, get down to once a day. But don’t feel bad, we have to have some kinda of way to release the tension.