I'm tired of this and want my life back!

Starting over at day 1 today after a really nasty binge week. I had been so stressed out from work and stuff I just let myself go, and feel rather bad about it now as I was working towards a goal I wanted and almost gave up on it just for a few pmo sessions.
I am going to post on here updates of my journey daily as I try to reach 30 days pmo free and if any of you want to join with me I welcome you on my journey to beating this porn addiction!

 

Alright made it through day 1 working in day 2! I almost had a slip up last night as I laid down for bed my mind tried to flood my head with images of hentai in porn to get me to Pmo to help me sleep but I stopped myself hopped out of bed and took a few deep breaths to let the urge go away.

 

Thanks for the support

 

That sounds way better than the way I have been trying to stop I will have to try that! I have counting days and avoiding triggers to try and beat this.

 

On day 4 with no relapses feeling pretty good like I have a little energy back! I had a little slip up today though I was checking my snapchat because I got a notification and while on their clicked on a ad/short video that was a woman in a skimpy outfit showing off her big tits and tattoos. I felt the blood rush from my head and realized what was happening and quickly shut it down and put my phone away. I could feel my addiction flowing over my mind trying to get me to keep looking and look at more but thankfully I stopped before I fully relapsed and started listening to a porn addiction recovery audio book instead once I cooled down from the arousal to help me stave off any more cravings.
I just got home from work and plan on working on some projects to tire me out so I don't just browse my phone and end up slipping again.

 

Hey thanks so much for joining this thread looking for support.I wish you well on your journey and lets support each other as we take our lives back!

 

Hey guys how is everyone doing! I hope everyone is doing well on their journey today. Yesterday on my day 5 I almost fully reloaded because my friend came into town and we got together and had some drinks and I wasn’t in the best state of mind that once I got in bed my head was racing to fantasize about sex and me playing with myself. I thankfully stopped my self before a full relapse mostly in part my phone had died on me and I couldn’t look up porn even though the thought crossed my mind. I am gonna need to stay away from alcohol until I recover because it makes me horny and want to release my pent up hormones.

 

Hey there! Thanks for joining the thread and joining everyone on here on our journey to a life without porn. I need to do the full detox with alcohol and drugs too because they make it so easy for my mind to make excuses to watch porn and believe the lies my addiction tell me.