The Lord of the Rings Challenge

@Redemptionisrequired @Baki Hanma Thank you for the greetings brothers
Baki no worries. I posted it late but I just had an idea to use the Smeogal scene gif since I remember he said it was his birthday when he saw the Ring of Power

@newbobido Also I would like to add as Redemptionisrequired have said is to not to entertain those type of thoughts when your alone. Being busy is good especially too busy which means no time for PMO. Take advantage of that. In my case, I'm fine and no issues of me being alone for the most part. But you never know it will happen along my journey so I must take precaution as well. You need ask others here with a normal schedule because I feel like mine is not relatable. I bet people here are pretty busy but for me I have plenty of the free time to do PMO even after I am done writing this. I bet some if not most will probably relapse if they were in my situation. Especially if your very addicted then of course you will relapse very quickly. For me, I choose not to. My relapse will start with something I come across that is triggering online. I hope it helps.

Well we can only take it a day at a time. I'm on Day 3 so I'm taking it day by day. You can do it and pass a month so keep on going!

Well as I said earlier, you made it to the Valar rank which is admirable. I aspire to that one day to get that. I get it because my very first long streak with no PMO is 28. My Semen retention best streak is 36 days so no doubt I can make to a month with no PMO. That very streak started from a Youtube video with one of my subscription which that Youtuber's content is worldly/modern day type videos which include adult related topics. The video was regarding visiting an Adult convention which I have no idea what was the name of it. Any way, the Youtuber made a video of visiting that convention center and was interviewing current famous P stars including a few cam girls believe. That already started a trigger with me. Then onto a P star live stream channel (not a P streaming platform btw) then onto her Twitter page then the rest was history. Because of that I took off his notifications. I am thinking about unsubscribing because of that relapse. You already had a long streak that I aspire to do one day which I will share my testimony within a year hopefully. Any way, you can handle the pressure next time and if not even better. I believe you can do that again. Keep on going! That's all.

 

Checking in between Day 1 and Day 2
Today I had a good work day and afterwards I had what is called "me-time". I had a hot bath and other cute stuff, like a little girl lol
It was really enjoyable and totally arousal-free!

This evening I read some stuff out of my self-realization tool-box and that's so finger-licking good! I hope I will use that more often. Also I have a lot of training videos on board which are waiting for me.
I also wrote some ideas for new routines (to implement and structure them) and I wrote a plan for the next days and realized I have to meet my deadlines and have absolutely no time for other stuff, let alone acting out! I mean there's this long weekend in between, but then I have the friend-programm and even a little bit of learning when there is time.
Actually I should do another me-day in 6 - 10 days from now or alternatively have some fun with friends and if I'm lucky I'll get some time with my crush ...

 

So continuing on Day 3 since I replied to newbobido. I went to the gym earlier which is the time I was late since everyone starts coming in. When I checked in, the guy who is working in the front desk was helping out a woman with her gym membership. I believe it was something to do with renewing her membership. Any way, I think she is new. I never seen her before and she is beautiful, hot, & attractive. Not sure, if she is single or not.
I did make a glance eye contact with her but not sure if she is interested or not. She saw me but I think she is neutral towards me. Not sure if I will see her again but now that I have saw her, I am thinking of it now if she is going to go at that time I went earlier. Now my mind is wondering she is going to come in that same time I went early morning. If I start checking her out then I will be triggered eventually. So far I wasn't because of not staring.

Any way, it can be a problem if my minds starting wondering there and keep saying to myself "She is hot". Oh yes I am attracted to her. Nice figure and no more details lol. If I do talk to her, I hope it would be friendly and me not trying to hit on her because I'm on hard mode. Any way, I'm on Day 3 no female attraction is not suppose to happen yet. There a few attractive ones I have seen there that are regulars as well. Nothing more. My point is let's not entertain those thoughts any further if it gets out of hand.

I'm not talking to any women for personal reasons so I have no reasons for sex but you never know. Once I am on longer Semen retention/no PMO streak then I might come across at least one. And I will still commit to hard mode because I want my streak. I want to use this opportunity of Semen retention/no PMO since I didn't do it in my early 20s. If I get a girlfriend or get married (wife) in the process of my long streak then that would be great. Of course, I desire it greatly. But still I really want to get a long streak despite getting one because of the abuse I did in my past. That includes no sex for awhile until marriage of course. As I said in one of my current challenges, I think this could be my last relapse because I already this most of the work. So I will do what I need to do every day to get there and take precaution as well every day.

Lastly, I will help you destroy your PMO Ring if I was there with you physically. Just like Gandalf and Samwise Gamgee. You wouldn't like it but I mean it

I still love this scene. This hypes me up all the time! i still made a vow to myself when I came back here in the NoFap forum. This is until death for me! No MO for me just destroy this PMO Ring of mine once and for all!
Let's go Fellowship!

 

Day 421

Happy birthday brother! @LLOYYD

Welcome to the fellowship!

 

(bug, posted the same twice)

Re started the gym! I know exercise works wonders.

 

Day 2

 

Thank you my friend. I will try to remember that. I'll just have to use the past as motivation to make my future really kickass.

 

Day 23

Still very low energy. I'm not sure where this is all coming from, but I just gotta hunker down. I was thinking about dating and I think that activated some kind of "I can't" in my head. I think this depression is my minds way of getting me to do nothing and just return to pmo so I don't have to face this new thing.

 

Day 0.

Reset to MO but not to porn. I'm happy about that even though it was a short streak. I was feeling very bad physically, muscle spasms, shortness of breath, stomach cramps, and I turned to masturbation in my moment of weakness. I would do better by offering up my weakness to God and relying on Him to be my strength when I have none. After this reset I have felt the importance of leaving the past in the past. Yes, I stumbled, but I am still on my feet. Time to face the new challenges to the best of my ability rather than feeling guilty and shameful about the old ones where I failed.

St. Gabriel the Archangel, pray for us!

 

Day 1 no PMO. Flew home yesterday morning. I’m back with my family now and no temptation to PMO.

 

Day 6 checking in, I’m still in Bree and I’m still PMO free for the last 6 days.

I’m currently sitting at the bar in the prancing pony, trying not to look at or make eye contact with any girls. My brain is sick as I’m hyper sensitive to any females. So while I’m keeping some things under control, thoughts are still coming into my head and I’m having to check myself.

while at the bar I’ve started reading out of the shadows, the classic book on sec addiction. It is definitely confirming how problematic my behaviour has been as I compare their descriptions with my life for the past 20+ years. I am definitely a sex addict and I will beat this

 

Day 4 - A brave friend, Tom Bombadil, takes notice of your quest. He teaches you a rhyme to summon him if you fall into danger within his borders.
Quest Aid – Song of Bombadil

@Kairose Thank you for the greeting brother!

Yup, I feel old at my age.

Keep on going Fellowship!

 

Checking in, 2 days
Day 2 is over.

Actually I came, because of some urges. I'm working online and right now am alone here. Suddenly the idea of quickly downloading a p vid for later came into my mind, next thing was, I pondered about which scene or actress I could choose. It also strikes me how "urging" are these urges and with a certain pressure in my stomach. 'Course "it" want me to do it and the set and setting right now has trigger potential.

Of course I won't do it! I won't stray off the path. Just needed to get this out of my system.
Luckily I can have a break now and shut the PC off.

CU!

 

Day 3 checking in.

So far so good. Just a random thought, do you ever walk behind a random girl for a long time that's going to the same destination as you are and you feel like you're making her uncomfortable like a stalker even tho you don't mean to? Or is it just me lol.

Cause it happened to me a few times. I would even sometimes sit on the nearest bench and wait for the girl to disappear into the distance.

 

Yep I know what you mean. Not necessarily when walking, but I sometimes worry how I look at people. Like they talk about ‘eye-ducking’ someone, I’m always worried if I make eye contact with a woman, does my face betray where my mind automatically goes. I worry it does and I bloody hate it!!!

 

check in. Tonight will be difficult. Strong urges and alone at home for many hours. I hope I won't disappoint you guys

@newbobido In the morning while Gf still sleeps or on the way to work (public transportation) or at work

 

Make a plan and don’t sit on the couch and just watch TV would be my advice. Stay strong!!!

 

Don't relaspe brother. Be strong... You can defeat the PMO forces...
@daddyG1981 yeah , great point brother

 

My advice is if you have a car and can drive, have a peaceful night drive as in just drive slowly and see the surroundings or go to a friend's house and do some fun activities together. Basically, just do something active. Stay strong, you can do this!!

 

Checking in Fellowship friends!

80 Days Free of PMO.

Had a nice exchange yesterday with two people, the confidence sets in a very calm demeanour when I speak. I could tell in both cases these people wanted to speak with me, I really believe the nofap aura is a thing. In reality, semen retention aura. These were random encounters, one a woman and the other a man. I think it draws respect.

I continue my journey in making the days count.

Stay strong!

80 days – You enter the Dead Marshes, a swampland.

"Dreary and wearisome. Cold, clammy winter still held sway in this forsaken country. The only green was the scum of livid weed on the dark greasy surfaces of the sullen waters. Dead grasses and rotting reeds loomed up in the mists like ragged shadows of long forgotten summers."