Day 43 up Days to 2023------44days Goals: 1.) Get Better At Studies 2.)Get Better Physique Time spent today : Exercises: 0 Studies :0 Time wasted today:3 hrs( Woke up 3 hrs late) Total time spent : Exercises:4 hrs 30min Studies :8 hrs 40min Total time wasted :46 hrs 50min
Day 0 Binged a lot last night and earlier today. I felt like a zombie for a lot of the day. Sat in the mall listening to an audiobook of "Healing the Shame That Binds You," staring at nothing and feeling triggered by the girls lol. I don't even think it's that sexual, I think it's the need for acceptance or something like that. Even though it's usually with the hot, young ones I know that it's mostly toxic shame based. That's the problematic part anyway. Eventually my mood got a lot better and I tried a new hypnosis tape I'll be using daily as I feel like it helped. I also got rid of all the garbage and recycle that was building up, which already makes it look a lot better in here. I feel like I salvaged the day in a lot of ways towards the later part, so I'm glad about that. I am going to take it up a notch!
3 days Gf is out with her girls tonight, so big challenge for me. 10% chance that I make it but if I do, I might get my motivation back again.
Tomorrow will be 4 weeks Advantages of going one month: Mental & Physical strength More self aware both of the good & the bad More empathy for others Start to feel the emotional wounds more but am not numbing them out Mind opening to new possibilities & goals Easier to keep head down More confident interactions with others Easier to be humble, though habitually need to work harder on this More alive both the joys and fears are more intense Higher risk of speeding up now that I have more energy, so need to focus this energy into my work and good habits - now is the time for really tackling procrastination head on
Day 9 no PMO. It’s below freezing in the mornings now where I am but I’m still getting my steps in every day. Yesterday I did over 14,000 steps. It helps my overall mood when I get outside and exercise.
Day 5 Everything is going good. I have a detailed plan to top my class this year. It is very easy and practical. All I have to do is follow this plan everyday for 31days and I will be done with complete syllabus 2 months before the actual exam, then I can practice a lot of questions and score the desired marks. Make myself and my parents proud. Nofap is definitely gonna help me in this journey and I wish to keep my streak until I am done with my exams.
Day 43 up Days to 2023------44days Goals: 1.) Get Better At Studies 2.)Get Better Physique Time spent today : Exercises: 0 Studies :40min Time wasted today:3 hrs( Woke up 3 hrs late)+30min Total time spent : Exercises:4 hrs 30min Studies :8 hrs 40min Total time wasted :46 hrs 50min
Day 204 & 205 Yesterday, I couldn't check in due to work load. Fortunately I finished them. Today is my rest day
Checking in Fellowship Friends! 129 Days Free of PMO. I won't lie, the last 4-5 days have been quite challenging. Not on an urge standpoint, but rather on a "symptom" one. Recurring symptoms, flatline or PAWs flare up, whichever you want to call it. My brain feels foggy and my anxiety (rumination mostly before bed and disturbed sleep) is making a return. I have low motivation and feel slight anhedonia. As I have been advocating on my response to many of you, I will be doing my best to just let these sensations and feelings be. I believe that they have arisen for a reason, perhaps a work trigger or perhaps a personal one. I will see what arises over the next few days and do my best to address it. I feel as though I will be clawing myself to do my exposure today, my mind is fighting me against it. On a more positive note, i've had a lot of positive feedback at work and have an incredible opportunity coming up. We'll see where things go. Conversation with this girl is going, but I'm still undecided whether I want to pursue things further or not. Stay Strong! 129 days – Lady Galadriel appears again. She held up a small crystal phial: it glittered as she moved it and rays of white light sprang from her hand. “In this phial”, she said “‘is caught the light of Eärendil’s star, set amid the waters of my fountain. It will shine still brighter when night is about you. May it be a light to you in dark places, when all other lights go out." Quest Magic – Phial of Galadriel @PeaceOnEarth108 You can do it brother, you've proven this in the past. Believe in your ability. @Joserm99 and @Talz Rise again brothers, as always and I know I may sound like a broken record, but it's so important to assess what caused the relapse and develop a counter measure. Keep a journal for your journey and return to it. @Baki Hanma Brother, may I ask what is it about Zyzz that you look up to so much? He took an insane amount of steroids, did party drugs and partied hard. All things which lead him down to a very early grave. I realize you are younger and impressionable, and this is only my opinion, I believe there are far better role models out there. Don't sell your attention short on someone like him.
Day 43 up Days to 2023------44days Goals: 1.) Get Better At Studies 2.)Get Better Physique Time spent today : Exercises: 0 Studies :40min Time wasted today:3 hrs( Woke up 3 hrs late)+30min+3 hrs (I have serious series/anime addiction I just can't keep track of time now ) Total time spent : Exercises:4 hrs 30min Studies :8 hrs 40min Total time wasted :46 hrs 50min
Day 3 My room is almost finished. It's really rewarding to be in a organized and serene place. For the rest of the day, reading, swimming and sleeping early. Good day folks!
12 days Low urges yesterday, worked almost all the day but tryint to be more aware in my enviroment and planning to hang out the weekend. Today I worked out and took a cold shower. Keep strong my brothers.
Day 18 Urges: 3/5 Thoughts: 5/5 Last night was a battle hard won. Memories of old porn videos kept going through my head for most of the night, almost making me want to bust one just to shut them up. But I know it won't do me any good, my need for a clear head, leg cramp free sleep and to do better is all that's stopping me from doing the deed. I have learned however, that when my thoughts and urges are getting this bad, it's my body's way of telling me that I have pent up energy that needs to be used up. I couldn't workout today due to this being a rest day, so I took a half hour walk in the cold earlier and spent more catching up on house work; it's helped some, but the thoughts are still going, I'm to jump into my cold shower and hope it'll calm it down to more tolerable levels. Pray for me.
