Just a couple hours away from completing day Five. Good to be back on the path. The first five days or so, I always experience some mood fluctuation and my libido seems to be narrowed to one or two specific people. But then I am amazed how easily I go into erotic fantasy about them. But that beats walking around all day being triggered by almost everyone. This just tells me that I've watched way too much porn in my life. Porn feeds all that. And I usually don't even see it. I wake up when I go nofap.
Half way through Day Five. Always interesting. All this sexual energy inside calling out to me, "Hey, WTF?". The energy goes up and down, and it's hard to describe. It's "stand alone," and by that I mean it's the same feeling, the same pornographic fantasy, each and every time, projected on a variety of woman. It's not personal. I am not looking for connection with any one person, but I do seem to be seeking some kind of feeling of completion in each person. If I stay abstinent long enough, I could figure out some pretty heavy stuff!
Day 0/7 I don't really know how to get to one day anymore. It used to be easy, I could even go to 3-4 months but now, at every urges I feel like resisting and my brain always thinks "you want it now, not tomorrow! Come on, what's the harm? At least you're not frigid." Bruh
That's exactly my experience as well. Takes me a long time to get to that first 24. I've also gone long times and then BANG, back again. I've been trying to figure out how I can so casually abandon the effort so easily. What helps a little is that I realize that it's something in ME that absolutely refuses to cooperate, BUT if I can get past the first uncomfortable few days, I can get a streak going again. As you know there will be other critical points a few weeks out, a few months out where I am in a similar danger. At least I know that if I give in, it'll be MONTHS before I get back. Went over a year once, and look at me now, just under a week!
We're all in this together. Always always tell yourself you're stronger than this and do something else. Make sure you're always busy. I'm at day 7 completed, and moving on to 14 day challenge.
Sometimes I just count HOURS until I get to 24, and then start over. Then I try to get some kind of streak going, and go from there. I also reset sometimes after a week or two or four. But I learn from each relapse.