Hello, I have some questions, briefly, I went straight to flatline after pmo a few years ago to shrink cold dick, no sex libido, I feel no pleasure, because years of pmo, I feel numb to porn, when to treat porn also need manual stimulation, but now I am doing nofap, My current symptom is emotional numbness like a robot, unable to feel happiness and pleasure. What I want most now is to restore this sense of pleasure in daily life. and how to restore my daily mood and pleasure. Does it can not be recoverd？ I think this is anhedonia, how do you distinguish it from depression， No matter what I do, my brain doesn't feel much pleasure, it lacks euphoria
I think I've been addicted since I was a child, addicted to online games as a child, and then addicted to pornography
Feeling like robot .. it is dissociative disorder also called DPDR. Feeling disconnected, not feeling the original self; brain fog. It is because of reward pathway dysregulation due to excessive and prolonged dopamine hits. Don't worry - I too had this. Only reco : start Nofap and semen retention. Anhedonia is also a part of this. Not feeling pleasure or pain - like feeling unreal
Yes definitely. Meditation also helped a lot. I started 20 min twice a day. Just focusing on breath. You will be fine. Just stop SSRIs
Can you tell me your story briefly? I am very scared and panicked now, because my mental state is very bad and I feel depressed due to long-term pmo， I'm not motivated to do anything else. I'm not interested in my old hobbies anymore No matter what I do, my brain doesn't feel much pleasure, it lacks euphoria
Same like u .. almost 15 Years of porn. But I didn't watch everyday. Also not every week. But had awful mental disorders due to long fapping sessions and masturbation. Anxiety, depression, anhedonia, panic attacks, DPDR etc. Started nofap journey in 2017 But relapsed many times. Went to doctors, did brain MRI, went to psychotherapist- But never took SSRIs. Finally, met a therapist who asked me point blank- what of the following did u do in past ? Marijuana/porn masturbation/drugs/ alcohol. I said the 2nd one and then came to know how I was ruining my brain. Started long term abstinence and now more or less ok. Still have anxoety issues but 100 times better
Read the book - Your brain on Porn. Free pdf is available on Google. What u are going thru is classic symptom of excessive dopamine sessions. Anhedonia
This is normal man. Sounds like your dopamine is below the baseline and when that happens, you feel like a numb robot. It's a slow process but avoiding porn and frequent ejaculation will phase it out. As for depression or anhedonia, they're very close. But it's important to remember that it's pretty much impossible not to feel those things when you've been watching porn for ages. It's a super stimulus! You got all the excitement from porn, now you're stuck with the downside for a while until your brain sorts itself out. I'm 6 months porn free and have just got through a nasty 2-3 months of PAWS. I can see light at the end of the tunnel now. You will too my friend. Check out the video I posted at the top.
when im alone just chilling i notice i dont really feel anything or feel any type of way but when im around poeple i like my positive emotions show them selves
This thread has helped me a lot to read. I've been really worried about having anhedonia - also was having months and months of that "dead robot" feeling where nothing seemed to matter, just a sinking empty void in my chest. I'd look around at all the cool things in my room like video games and books and just...feel nothing. Same with socializing. Sure, I was good at faking a smile, but at the end I secretly regretted leaving the house. Now that I'm back on the wagon those feelings are starting to go away. It feels really nice. Especially in the first week or so when I start to appreciate music again. porn killed my love of music!! Thats how powerful and evil it is. Nofap really is a wonderful thing, it gives me pleasure in life again.
