Benefits in day 29

Hello Everyone!

I'm 23 years old guy, and I always struggled with sexuality and masturbation, and the huge guilt feelings that followed from PMO. I spent my teenage years depressed and pretty lonely, it was a gradual decline of my mood that started probably since I first masturbated, at age 13.
So, a few days ago I reached day 29.
Also, before that, this summer I "won" the "big" 90-day challenge (and this summer was the best I had since childhood! I even "lost my virginity". Not that this should be your main objective if you are considering NoFap...

Here are some benefits I noticed:
-Improved mood
-Greater desire to meet other people (especially girls). Before I was scared to death of rejection, and had almost no experience in being one-on-one with a girl.. Two weeks ago we hung out (friendly) in the evening and had an awesome time. I even mentioned that I was free for a relationship in case she was interested. She said "I'll consider that".
Completely lost my fear of rejection
-Better productivity in study and greater focus.
-Improved memory, especially visual
-Complete indifference as to what the other people think of me... My whole life I always struggled with this, so much that I would look around while talking to a girl and this felt embarassing... It's a problem in my whole family anyway.
-Deeper voice
-More relaxed around everybody. I also noticed how my body moves less when talking, feels much calmer
-Greater sense of entitlement, and connection with my inner self love
-Improved lucidity in dreams

I also started regular meditation, at least twice a day, about 10 minutes a sitting.

The only problem is if I relapse. A few days ago I felt horny landing on a porn picture, and felt really awful for the following two days.. But now I'm on day 4 again, and feel much better already. I think the main motivator is the shitty feeling I get when I relapse, I get close to feeling suicidal... That's the "old" me coming to the surface.

But I also feel so better faster, day 5 feels like day 20 when I started my first NoFap challenge. So it's definitely true that you don't lose your progress if you relapse.
Keep up the good work NoFap, and Fapstronauts, it's well worth it!

My challenge is now 1 year... Sounds very difficult, but I can make it! Always get up after every fall, it'll get easier every time!

 

Thank you guys,

CBRpolo don't envy me!! I was educated a Catholic and had my father walking in while masturbating, when I was just 13, one of my early times.. So I've been feeling guilty and depressed because of the habit since I was 13.
Also, I'm struggling even now to get rid of my guilt and shame, sometimes I still feel a bit suicidal if I relapse (doesn't happen often though). You can see I'm well motivated but I have to pay a lot for this motivation!

Just hug yourself if you relapse and take deep breaths whenever you have a sexual image, that will help!

Gladiatori, that's true, I'm sure actually that we can change the world for better, even with watching our behaviour and these "little" things!

I feel Nature wants us to get back in touch with ourselves, and our Life essence, and I'm afraid that all the trouble with wars, economics, terrorism etc. are more painful ways to get us back together.

 

I feel your trouble man. I too felt like this. Are you from Europe? I'm from Italy, and I can tell you that there are still a lot of Catholic girls, who are not very sexually experienced..
But regardless of where you are from, I feel that through faith you shall overcome your problems.. Try praying God to change the way you see your situation.

I know that it is not easy to live in this troubled and oversexed world, but lately I felt that those promiscuous girls out there are not as happy as society would make us believe.. They too are in deep longing for Love, like you and me.
I think one important step is to see women as conscious human beings, like you and your male peers and to reduce sexual imagery as much as possible.

I lately hang out with a Catholic girl I met through a friend, I asked her whether she was free to go out (I was very anxious because I never hung out alone with a girl). I listened to her and talked.. We had a great time, I think I shall ask her out again .

I still have some work to do, but I'm very optimistic about my progress.
If I may, I would suggest you check out "barry long" on YouTube, in particular the "How to stop thinking" and "Making Love" videos. They have been very useful even if I am single now. I listen everyday to Sadhguru as well.

But most importantly, keep up with the great work of detoxing the mind, smile and don't get discouraged..
Maybe a lot of girls who are single or in a bad relationship are just praying for someone like you to come.
Don't believe that all the girls who have boyfriends are happier than you. Just be happy to be alive, meditate and don't compare yourself with anyone.

God bless

 

You are welcome Btw, I am from Northern Italy, "Paesano" is an expression from the South
Keep rockin'!