Hey everyone. So I gatta job that requires me to input data from someones emails onto a spread sheet. Long story short shes a photographer and some of the pictures show women at weddings and idk i'd consider it a p-sub. I try not to look at them but I just wish I didn't have to look at the pictures. Any thoughts? Edit: FUCK THIS JOB. GUESS WHAT? I FEEL DRAINED OF ENERGGY. AND THE OLD PIED HAS RETURNED. I DIDNT DO ANUTHING! I FOLLOWED ALL THE RULES AND FOR WHAT? I DONT KNOW WHT TO DO ANYMORE. I HATE MY LIFE THIS ADDICTION IS STRONGER THAN ANY DRUG BECAUSE I HAVE NO CHHOICE NO MATTER WHERE I GO. BUT THATS NO FUCKING EXCUSE TO RELAPSE NOW. NO THIS IS ANOTHER TEST. NEVER WILL I EVER PMO. I MIGHT BE SET BACK DUE TO THIS FUCKING JOB BUT WHAT CHOICE DO I HAVE? NONE. AND IF I EVER PMO THEN FFUCK IM DONE WITH MY LIFE. SUICIDE. I HATE THIS BUT IM TAKING MONTHS OFF AND GOING INTO ISOLATION. ILL COME OUT A NEW MAN. I ALREADY GOT 2 MONTHS BEHIND ME I AINT FUCKING IT UP FOR NOTHINNG BUT FUCK THIS PIECE OF SHIT JOB! I'm cold Edit2: I have calmed down now, I'm good.
Well, what are you gonna do? I doubt you can afford to quit you job and start searching for another, or? If you're like an average person in the western world you probably just have to do what you have to do. Saying that, doing ANYTHING more (even a tiny bit more) then your job requires, I would consider a relapse. My advice: do what you must, but be really strict about yourself not being allowed to indulge in the photos even a tiny bit more then necessary. It will be harder on you then before, but hey, that's the hand you've been dealt, no?
yea, I am avoiding looking at the pictures. I don't indulge in them at all. I know porn (and p-subs) r bad for my mind/health. I haven't even been aroused by one pic so far cause I wanna reboot so bad. Thanks, I'm not going to let something like this set me back. No matter wht happens I will NEVER go on a website like pornhub again, I will NEVER masturbate again.
That sucks dude. I would be in trouble if that was me. Anyway, there are some special tricks you can use to reduce desire, like thinking about how impure this body is. It's rotting, moment by moment, and as soon as it's dead--when the mind leaves--we will have no interest in it. Until then, it's just a cage of filth that we beautify with perfumes and ornaments, bath it, make it up, etc, but if we stopped caring for it for a few days it would be gross! There is no essence, just a bunch of impure parts that cannot move without mind. It is actually very similar to a corpse. Also, one of the main things were attracted to is youth, but this is just a dying mask that will eventually whither away and pass because youth can't last forever. I hope this helps! Just keep a positive mind, you'll be fine!
Thank you everyone. I just feel bad right now. I can feel the energy draining from me right now, I hate this. I didn't even want to look at these pictures. I don't feel motivated to do anything right now. Fucking hate this shit and I was hired by this person because her business was failing and I was just tryna help. Wtf I cant believe how powerful this shit is like this is not even porn its just a few pictures of women in wedding dresses. And I do not indulge in them yet I still feel them affecting me even after I am taking a break. If I somehow lose all 78 days of progress then I don't know wht I will do with myself. I told myself this is my last chance to reboot and I hhave been on this website everyday not looking at porn, not masturbating, helping ppl out on here, and then I get this shit with some fucking borderline p-subs? Goddamnit. Like I said i'll never under absolutely no circumstances PMO again, but I can feel these pics affecting me. Idk maybe its just my paranoid imagination. It sucks because I'm getting 10% of her earnings so i'd be making good money for a community college student plus something I could put on my resume plus the experience in a business (I'm a business major). Hopefully I'll pull through without too much damage.
Images of pretty ladies are always going to be around us. That's simply a fact. Porn does not follow us around. The alcoholic may have to walk past the twofours at the grocery isle. Keep working. Pad your resume. Earn an income. Keep up with your studies.
Consider this an additional challenge.. Challenge is good.. You've reached far enough, so don't give up. If you managed to look at the picture without being aroused... Good Job
thank you everyone. I will try my best to just do the work. Edit: Fuck porn, fuck masturbation! I REFUSE to go back to that pathetic lifestyle. I may be a porn addict but I'm not a pussy! I'll do the job and thrive of it. This shit wont stop me!
thank u for ur response. but an alcoholic must drink alcohol to relapse. All I have to do to relapse is accidentally look at a girl on the internet. In my case, I'm required too. This is why I do so many drugs, so I can just zone out. I fucking hate this job, I am literally exposed to pics of women in dresses. Pisses me the fuck off. At least in the past when I relapsed I did it consciously but with this job it doesn't matter whether I want to or not, it chooses for me. 78 days down the drain? I hop not, but I feel drain of energy, I cant get an erection anymore, I feel bad. IT TOOK ME FUCKING MONTTHS TO COME TO THIS POINT AND FOR WHAT? TO HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO FAIL? I'M FUCKING TIRED OF THIS ADDICTION I AM 20 NOT 60 AND I SHOULD HAVE PIED. I CANT STAND THIS SHIT FUCK THIS JJOB.
duno why but I find your posts really funny even the problem is serious lol. sr about that. I have a strange feeling that our world today is even more more more dangerous than ever before. And they call it "development". increase of mental ill people, increase of suicides, increase of homeless people, increase of divorce, increase of addicts, people are miserable in nice clean clothes. , and they call it "development". people laugh but shout more, people smile less. fucking lustful things are around every corner. use this one: http://arcanesanctum.net/negativescreen/ It may help you get rid of triggers on computer. I didn't any method to deal with triggers in real life yet. I'm still seeking
