Feeling Horrible after Relapse a sign of Recovery?

Yeah it could be. I felt weird and even insane sometimes after relapsing.

 

Remember how horrible this feels, and bring it to mind every time you feel tempted.

 

Honestly, that feeling sometimes comes even from having sex. I had it a couple of times during the reboot and sometimes it makes you wonder whether you relapsed. But you didn't!
Just be careful of the chaser effect.

 

How many days were you abstinent before you relapsed?

 

The times i've had a headache the day after sex it's because i also had a hangover hahah
It's funny also how the chaser when you have sex doesn't come till after 5-6 days but when you fap it comes just the day after...

 

All the years I spent engaged in this behavior I never felt any physical effects of having had an orgasm. I felt the psychological effects of it, shame, self loathing, socially creepy to a certain degree, but never any of this. I just don't see how the two can be related. Is it possible that its all psychosomatic? Logic would dictate that if you are physically depleted by a loss of semen it could lend itself to some physical effect, like perhaps a headache due to dehydration. It cannot be possible to lose that much fluid by way of orgasm and certainly a glass of water would offset any of the negative consequences. I guess Ive never had this as an issue so I would welcome any feedback...

 

I didn't felt this physical effect either before but once you start the rebooting process, you start getting all sorts of physical effects that are every bit illogical and still correlated with being addicted. I have been through so many phases, I feel like I have grown older more in the last year than in the last 20 years all put together.
The good news is that all these physical effects seem to be short lived. In the previous month I had severe physical effects from ejaculation. I felt very down, tired, bad mood, sadness and severe anxiety.
Nowadays, these effects are smaller but still existing.

 

Yeah, today I relapsed and even though I didn't felt bad immediatly, I started feeling bad tonight.
But you know, feeling bad is good, it means you care.

 

13 and 23 days are good streaks! Don't say "only", no need to belittle yourself!

And yes, I think it is a sign that you rewiring. You have already brought your brain out of its routine, this is very good and very important.

The whole rewiring actually means to break your routines, and step over to a new more healthy behaviour.