So far so good, no intention of relapsing, although the urges are still alive and present. Just focusing on the process and journey of improving myself in the long run. The loneliness sometimes is tempting me to get back to PMO, but I am not letting those voices get me. Guess I am in a flatline now, experiencing some ups and downs in terms of mood changes. Nonetheless, just staying focus on reaching my second milestone soon i.e. 60 days! Thanks for asking. Cheers.
Okay 30 days gone!! Month of March 2017 in this 30 days i had 2 orgasms and i believe 2 wet dreams, which is great for me!! Last night i found an unexpected IPad in my room and rest became a routine! i relapsed last night with PMO! BUT i am more determined as after relapsing i didnt feel as if to say i feel bad it was a sort of reward for reaching 30 days BUT i know i shouldn't have done that! i m sure all progress is not lost but my aim even before this relapse was to get to 30 days and reset the counter mainly due to the fact on day 26 27 and 28 i watched alot of P-sub on youtube which was the worst idea possible for me. Now Aim is for the entire Month of April to be on Hardmode and become a MONK! I m not motivated but rather determined as i know motivation dies out after 2 to 3 days so will be different! Any advice will be appreciated!
Day 1 Hard mode! 01/04/2017 Saturday. Good sunny day outside lots to do, will be a good day today hopefully!
Going great/ Discovering my self again! feels amazing as now everyone is like your skin is glowing, u look alot healthier, putting weight on and also being confident. will keep on going.
Day 1 Another 30 day challenge from today! It is so vital to post here or else your likely to go down the wrong route again!
DAY 1 after 30 days i have felt changes but i have relapsed like twice in 2 days and this is not good for me now. Need to put my act together again and stay firm or all the benefits will be loss!! come on!! lets fight again now!!
DAY 2 Good day today. have brain fog but this will fix as days progresses so i m not worried, i know the process!!
DAY 3 moving along nicely. no major urges or anything. today met old friends and feels awesome!! feels like i m coming out of my 'two lives'!
