DAY 1/65 THURSDAY 02/03/2016 EMOTIONS WERE HARD TO CONTROL YESTERDAY AND LEAD TO RELAPSE. NOT GIVING UP DOE.
Take one day at a time. Don't fight the urge, keep yourself busy in other stuff so whenever urges arise you don't have time to react to them.
DAY 3/65 SATURDAY 04/03/2017 GOOD DAY YESTERDAY. NO URGES AT ALL. WENT GYM, AND THAN TOO TIRED SO FELL ASLEEP EARLY. WEEKEND WILL BE A LITTLE BIT CHALLENGE BUT LETS SEE!! 1 DAY AT A TIME
DAY 4 Sunday 05/03/2017 Brain fog is starting to clear out and can think a lot better. Didn't get a lot of sleep due to Some crazy 'P flashes' in the head but didn't give up! stayed strong and got through the day. Today will be challenging as well as i don't have anything to do and the inner devil will try to take full advantage of it. BUT THIS IS THE BATTLE WHICH I NEED TO CONQUER as when i am busy that's not problem but the day i am not busy i need to use my energy in something Productive. I need to think about the future and not destroy myself for 2 seconds of fake happiness compared to all future true happiness!! I NEED BE DISCIPLINED RATHER THAN MOTIVATED AS MOTIVATION WILL DIE OUT BUT DISCIPLINE REMAINS!!!
Today rather went smoothly. Had minor urges but i didn't entertain them. went to gym as soon as they came, distracted myself and used my energy on making my body. all in all a good day. going to bath than some food and so tired that it will be almost sleep time. Thanks to my AP 'Awakening123' for looking out for me. having somebody behind you helps alot! Thanks Buddy!
DAY 5 MONDAY 06/03/2017 WOKE UP EARLY TODAY. GOING WORK AND FEW OTHER MINOR THINGS TO DO. BUSY DAY. FEELS LIKE I AM ABOUT TO ENTER FLATLINE. WELL PAIN HAS TO BE ACCEPTED. WITHOUT PAIN THERE IS NO GAIN.
Had some very strong urges earlier BUT stayed strong. done meditation today after so long and i feel awesome. BTW my urges were to masterbate not to watch Porn, is this normal? i mean it was like my encounters with my first GF. Basically i don't think about Porn its about real people in real life!! this is scary as this has never happened to me!
Congrats on the tough fight. You making some good progress buddy. Urges can differ in magnitude and intensity. Don't pay too much attention to them; just do what you are supposed to be doing.
DAY 6 TUESDAY 07/03/2017 YESTERDAY WAS TOUGH BUT GOT THROUGH IT LAST NIGHT I COULDNT SLEEP BUT HAD NO URGES AND THIS MORNING WOW HAD MORNING WOOD WHICH WAS THERE FOR LIKE 3 HOURS. THIS IS A BATTLE WHICH I HAVE TO WIN. MINI STEPS BUT HAVE TO STAY STRONG, GOT WORK TODAY AND THAN STRAIGHT TO GYM. HOPEFULLY IT WILL BE SMOOTHER THAN YESTERDAY.
Had few urges earlier on BUT didnt give up. stayed strong. Had a shower now feel so sleepy!! Another day under the belt i guess.. same problem for me. NO urges to P but to actual people in life! Also urge to masterbate was high BUT didnt do it! lets move on!!
DAY 7 WEDNESDAY 08/03/2017 yesterday was a good day. had little urges but i think the main thing is not to entertain those urges. 2 days in a row urges have come and i have won the battle. so far so good. getting ready to leave for work now and than will go gym in the evenings. super tired by than and hopefully will fall asleep straightaway.
I HAVE VERY STRONG URGES RIGHT NOW. ALL I WANNA DO IS GO AND BANG ONE!!! IM TRYING TO STAY AWAY BUT ITS BECOMING DIFFICULT AND DIFFICLUT. THESE LADIES ARE WOALKING AROUND NAKED IN OFFICE!! ONE OF THEM GOES COME TO THE BACK. M LIKE NO THANKS!! ANY TIPS GUY?? I M GONNA EXPLODE HAHA
Wow i have no idea how i survived today. the urges were strong as heck. I was close to letting it go BUT that last moment you think why you doing it made me stop and boy i stopped like a freak. Really rough day today must admit to that!! BUT I WON!!
Congrats! This is how you win every battle and the moment you start winning the battles, you start winning the war too.
DAY 8 THURSDAY 09/03/2017 i HAVE NO IDEA HOW I SURVIVED YESTERDAY. IT WAS HELL! LAST NIGHT URGES STARTED AGAIN AND THEY WERE TOUGH TO ESCAPE FROM. KEPT ME AWAKE UNTIL 2AM BUT I STILL DIDNT GIVE UP!! I JUST HOPE TODAY IS MORE EASIER THAN YESTERDAY! HOWEVER THE DAY I WILL WIN!!
