In my most recent Success Story post (which I recall you having read), I did in fact mention a timing of extreme urges that reappeared. Their reappearance closely matched between the first 90 days & the second 90 days. And so:
I am somewhat confident that (somewhat bizarrely for me to say) this same pattern is almost certainly reappearing in my 3 set of 90 Days. I cannot speak for others, but this seems to be so for me.
A few parting thoughts (sorry for the wave of posts): 1.) If this is the same sort of thing, it is heartening in that it shall pass. 2.) It will be interesting to see if this trend continues for me. I might very well eventually parse through my journal & compile statistics &c.
No need to apologies at all my friend, happy to hear from you! Interesting, I wonder if something happens hormonally on that 90 day period. A spike of T perhaps, or did you find that you were more stressed during those periods? I have noticed patterns for me as well but in a different way. They've been growing in distance and in level of discomfort.
At first very minimal things would set off my stress response, anger or sadness which would lead an urge my way. It takes higher levels of these emotions to lead me to have an urge now. I have also noticed random occurrences
High heat and humidity has triggered those random occurrences, so it would a remedied that discomfort in the past with PMO. I agree with you, it is deeply comforting to know that these periods will pass. As we carry on along our journey we can better prepare for their occurrence.
I would have to make a deeper analysis. In general, I, too, have noticed healing. It takes a lot more to throw me off. This week has been difficult for some obvious reasons (the journal entry had referenced seeing an attractive person--& of course, the gym discussion did not help). Yet, I think it has been a bit more random--if random can be used here appropriately.
In short, I must not give up, & the healing has been real (if I look back years ago, it is quite startling). Sometimes it simply does not look like it in the present moment--especially amidst trials that seem so petty, old, &c. Anyway, I hope you have had better days of late.
Yes, we must hold strong. PMO is never worth it. It is far too easy to overlook the progress we have made when a trial presents itself. In fact, you've given me an idea. I will write down everything that I could not do and can do now. I'll use that as a reference on the more challenging days. Thank you for the wishes friend, I hope the same for you. I will keep you posted on any interesting turn of events.
Yes, they do not hold any of the merit of Middle-Earth (I am a fan of much of that--mainly the written works)...but they do hold a place in the warmth of nostalgia. Quite a thing, it is, nostalgia? But there is more to that choice than meets the eye; I wrote about it some time ago in my journal, if you are curious.
Two different realms, each carrying their own interesting stories. Your posts intrigue me and provide a lot of insight and knowledge for the people on this forum. I'll gladly give it a read, tomorrow! Be well friend, I'll be off for tonight.
Well, the name I chose is what I aspire to do. I need to redeem myself for all the damage I have caused myself and others over the last 3, now almost 4 years. PMO addiction and overall mindless internet addiction, put a strain on my mental health and started affecting me physically. I understand now that I need face my demons. I do so by going through PAWs(Post-Acute Withdrawal)
It has not been pleasant by any means and I'm still not recovered yet, it can be up to 2 years but I'm hopeful at the year marker I will be much better off.
This is my path, the suffering will bring me growth. When I pull through, I will be a changed man forever. For the better.
As for my Avatar, Aragorn redeemed his bloodline by not falling victim to the Ring of Power as his ancestor Isildur did. He committed his life to training himself, mind and body, overcoming and facing the obstacles before him. This in term, made him worthy to wear the crown and become King. And I like my specific avatar of him, because he is pondering on his next move. Hopefully this wasn't too pretentious, haha.
With regards to your post on nostalgia, I think I found it. Where you left your place of employment around day 65? It's interesting, the way nostalgia presents itself in certain cases, as if a temptation to remain in place or in the past. This, as opposed to moving forward. I've noticed nostalgic memories would appear when I would go through discomfort, not helpful to the situation at hand.
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