That’s right, my friend! Was definitely triggered but came here instead. Small battle, small victory. That’s what war is all about, right? ;)
Think I am back on track like in 2018... No Porn for 50days and counting. But... I basically sacrificed the phone for some game time. I dunno, i feel overburdened at work, so at home I just wanna kick back and rock some Fallout 4. Will try to pick up the phone and check in here once a week. Keep going Tiger.
Man I wish you had a ps4. I would buy you a copy of fallout 76 so we could have a few drinks and totally nerd out. That would be a blast.
Well 8 days was better than no days, I suppose. Back up I go. Not gonna binge. Need to get out of bed on my day off. Lesson learned.
No doubt, my dude. Well said. I’ve met a lot of people who looked fantastic on the outside but were clearly dead on the inside.
That is the way to go. The brain works better when it knows what to do rather than what not to do. Proud of you mate.
“What I do that defines me.” Wherever you are…just know that this clown misses seeing you around nofap.
Haha, no, the last time I felt proud, I ended up deleting my account only to find my way back to the hellhole again... I'm not falling for that trick again, shame on me if I do.
Like I had said earlier, you were and still are an inspiration to many of us, I would love to see you start journaling again but it's your choice, if you don't feel like it's worth it then it's pointless to do it anyway. I hope you find your way out of the woods ASAP. Just keep chipping away at that block of granite...
I really appreciate that. Thank you. Yeah I had thought that maybe journaling could help me again…I think I might once my divorce is finalized.
This is one addiction that age has no mercy on. I'm 21 this year and battling just as hard as we did 3 years ago. For the younger generation, your an example to follow. That 'never give up', 'not today!' vibe. You find that in those who experienced the worst of it and pushed through. Read your journal when you had it up. You've been through some stuff that made me step down many times from going back to P.
Thanks dude. You always were there. Man…if my journal helped one person not relapse then it was totally worth it. Hell I’d like to go back and read the brain scrambled ramblings lol. Would be interesting.
You’re kicking ass though, loveless! You’re an oak, my man. You haven’t had it easy at all either…and judging by your counter you’re well on your way to end this once and for all.
I’m 40 years old. I’ve been doing this for 30 years. I dunno…don’t you think the damage has been done. Is there any point? Is there recovery
Thank you @Roady Your journal has helped me greatly in the past. It’s a fantastic read. You’re probably right…I should revisit it. @JedWiley No doubt, my man. I was in a weak spot last night and I guess I just needed to think out loud. Thank you. @fg4795 Indeed. One day at a time. My brain was hitting me pretty hard with negative thoughts last night. I’m actually surprised I made it. I appreciate your time :)
Keep at it man, you were an inspiration when I had an account under a different name. I realize life's been brutal to you lately but don't surrender now. You've done it before, we know you have what it takes to kick this habit.
Since you are on nofap, if you had done twice in a day, now you do once in a week or a month, you can compare. Don't worry keep it up, learn from past mistakes.
Well it seems that I've reached a sort of breakthough in my later 40's after 3 years of very intensive recovery trials here on nofap. But I need to watch out, to stay humble all the time. But I'm feeling some freedom in my spirit and that 's priceless. I'm praying for you that God may show you His love and merci. The truth sets free.
That’s fantastic news! I really wish to have that feeling again someday. I’m extremely happy for you. I know you’ve been through hell and you have fought so hard to get here.