Mr. Stark
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Mr. Stark

Fapstronaut, Male, 25

Day 0: Evolving learning growing maturing. I am Iron man. I have iron will. Aug 22, 2022

    1. Mr. Stark
      Mr. Stark
      Day 0: Evolving learning growing maturing. I am Iron man. I have iron will.
    2. A Conqueror
      A Conqueror
      Mr Stark i feel so good
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      3. Mr. Stark
        Mr. Stark
        I have never been thay far. But I will keep trying
        Aug 22, 2022
      4. A Conqueror
        A Conqueror
        Evolve every fail, if you continue doing the same you wont progress, lets go
        Aug 22, 2022
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      5. Mr. Stark
        Mr. Stark
        Well said!
        Aug 22, 2022
    3. Mr. Stark
      Mr. Stark
      I am an extra-ordinary person. I am an amazing person.
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    4. Mr. Stark
      Mr. Stark
      Back after 2 months or so.
    5. Mr. Stark
      Mr. Stark
      I could manage to leave it for 11 days. But then on 12th day, fell for psubs and then complete relapse for 2 days back to back.
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      2. rostronaut
        rostronaut
        Look Up, Get Up and Don't Ever Give Up!
        Aug 17, 2022
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      3. Mr. Stark
        Mr. Stark
        I wont ever give up. I am never giving up.
        Aug 22, 2022
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    6. Mr. Stark
      Mr. Stark
      Have been away for sometime. Have been struggling. I am completely effed up. I know its not right but here again, another relapse. Day 0.
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      2. A Conqueror
        A Conqueror
        Mr Stark you don't feel so good
        Jun 25, 2022
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      3. Deleted Account
        Deleted Account
        Giving it another go, though. Good man. Try a variation this time.
        Jun 27, 2022
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      4. Redemptionisrequired
        Redemptionisrequired
        Put in work to figure out what you are escaping in the moment a PMO urge comes. Develop a counter method to it. If you feel that things are out of hand still, perhaps even reaching out to a therapist to assist (if that is in your means).
        Aug 14, 2022
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    7. One Eyed Owl
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      2. Mr. Stark
        Mr. Stark
        Hug back bother! With my power of low self control and incapability of action to do anything at all that would be helpful, a tight hug, to get some courage and keep moving.... Someday I might be better.
        Jun 25, 2022
    8. TheRevenant
      TheRevenant
      Thanks for all the like buddy!! I know it seems impossible right now but you will come out on top! I've been there!
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    9. Mr. Stark
      Mr. Stark
      Feeling very low and depressed. Nothing feels right. Brain just wants that fix again. Nothing feels good again. Crippling anxiety. Afraid.
      1. Deleted Account
        Deleted Account
        The only way out of the pit is to do the opposite of what you are currently.
        May 22, 2022
    10. Mr. Stark
      Mr. Stark
      Had been abstaining since morning. Found some P in the recycle bin. Tried to avoid. But started it. And a full blown reset. Days 0 again.
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      2. Mr. Stark
        Mr. Stark
        Whole cycle again. Withdrawl symptoms again. Depression, anxiety, restlessness, sleeplessness all of it. Back to 0. I wish I was capable of applying what I know. I wish I was stronger.
        May 22, 2022
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      3. {Ananta}
        {Ananta}
        its not if we r strong or weak, our brains think we are mating, we cant go against our nature, so we need to think smart,keep busy
        May 24, 2022
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    11. Mr. Stark
      Mr. Stark
      Feel worried but I shouldn't. I should stay courageous. Feel like the MO might have again activated the P addiction neural pathways. (๑•﹏•)
      1. amaranth
        amaranth
        It might be a good idea to experience other things, in keeping with your commitment of recovery of course. It may take some time, but the shift is certain to occur. The less we feed the same old pathways, the less they'll be reinforced (and other pathways will instead ;) )
        May 21, 2022
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      2. Fantasia
        Fantasia
        Don't MO, it will trigger your brain to ask more dopamine and you will have high risk to relapse. I always PMO a few days after (or less) I MO.
        May 21, 2022
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    12. Mr. Stark
      Mr. Stark
      I am not feeling very good now. I wish I had reached out here when I was feeling it and prevented myself from MO. Feeling tired and not like
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      2. Mr. Stark
        Mr. Stark
        doing anything. Why my weekends end up being like this. Why can't I have some refreshment and at the same time productive work...
        May 21, 2022
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      3. vxlccm
        vxlccm
        Don't give up. Just continue from where you are. I agree that it's difficult to be in that boat. But, you're always better off just to get right back on track asap. Lessons learned. You can do this. It's great that you've had a better week! Make the next 2 weeks better still :)
        May 21, 2022
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    13. Mr. Stark
      Mr. Stark
      7 Days 8 Hours in: I did not give into p. I consciously did not want to. But I gave into MO. Will try & give that up also.
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      2. Mr. Stark
        Mr. Stark
        But, there were feelings of damned un-wellness as I woke up today. Chances of reset were increased right from yesterday as we stepped into the weekend. And I had reached almost a week as well. And today I gave into MO, but not P. Tried not fantasizing about P, but P was trying to get into my thoughts. I don't think conscious MO are good for me personally for rebooting. So I'll try better next time
        May 21, 2022
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    14. {Ananta}
      {Ananta}
      hug
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      2. Mr. Stark
        Mr. Stark
        Hug brother
        May 21, 2022
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    15. |SID|
      |SID|
      Whatsup?
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      2. Mr. Stark
        Mr. Stark
        Nothing much. Tried some meditation today.. how about you?
        May 21, 2022
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    16. Mr. Stark
      Mr. Stark
      Excerpt from book YBOP: Common withdrawal symptoms include: irritability, anxiety or even panic, unaccustomed tears,
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      2. Mr. Stark
        Mr. Stark
        restlessness, lethargy, headaches, brain fog, depression, mood swings, desire to isolate, muscle tightness, insomnia, and severe cravings to use porn.
        May 18, 2022
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    17. Mr. Stark
      Mr. Stark
      Excerpt of a rebooter from book YBOP: You won’t be able to do it. Or, at least, that’s what you’re going to think every single day,
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      2. Mr. Stark
        Mr. Stark
        and it’ll feel so true that you just can’t take it anymore. You will be going through the emotional ups and downs of withdrawal. You are like a man setting out to climb a tall mountain who has never walked before. At first it will seem impossible, but as you walk a little bit more each day, your muscles, i.e., your willpower, will grow and it will become possible.
        May 17, 2022
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    18. Mr. Stark
      Mr. Stark
      Because none of the tasks or productive work can give my neural pathways the fix they have been used to, so they won't give me the dopamine
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      2. Mr. Stark
        Mr. Stark
        hit to pursue them. They won't let me. They'd keep me strangled from head to toe in invisible chains doing nothing, being nothing and moreover make me feel worse and worse.
        May 17, 2022
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    19. Mr. Stark
      Mr. Stark
      The urges make me feel like nothing is good, nothing was good & nothing could ever be good. They force me to stay unproductive all the time.
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    20. Mr. Stark
      Mr. Stark
      I feel like crying, overburdened, tired like hell and sleepy yet sleepless. Withdrawal symptoms are here.
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      2. Mr. Stark
        Mr. Stark
        Brain is trying to trick me, the already strong pmo neural pathways are exerting all their force to pull me down so as to feed the habitual monster within. But no. No means no. I won't back down.
        May 17, 2022
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    Gender:
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    Birthday:
    Aug 21, 1997 (Age: 25)
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    I have been trying from April 2018 over this forum. There have been certain highs, and certain deep lows. Highs were surprisingly good. Made a 45 day streak once. Made around 20 days streak twice maybe. But i also suffered great losses. But i believe nofap is a good platform to achieve success.

    Hope i will too have a success... :)

    Its been 5 years or so. I have been on and off the site for long durations. One day I'll be free. I'll keep trying. I am Ironman. I have thr IRONWILL.

    Thing is to just keep TRYING!

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