1 week done without edging- my experience

Its been a tough 7 days for me. After having been on NoFap for more than 2 yrs I learnt about how harmful edging really is. This was of course after another relapse. I decided to start again, only this time I decided not to edge and to gain control over my thoughts and body when I felt like edging (early mornings especially). The things i've gone through as a result are pretty mind boggling. They aren't really positive changes, but just sitting with yourself when all you want to do is stroke your dick can tell you a lot about where the original problem lies and that helps in making a more meaningful and permanent change than distracting yourself with hits of dopamine. The first and foremost realisation is loneliness. why do i feel so lonely? why cant i connect with others? Why do I feel like the whole world is against me? The second is a need for validation which stems from my fear of being lonely. The need to agree to something a group of people say or believe, in order to be accepted without actually thinking about what you want to stand for. The third realisation i had over the last few days was on having the courage to stand for something. I say courage because standing up for what you think is right might put you against the group of people you so badly want to please so that they accept you.

So these are few of the questions that i am dealing with. I know for fact that finding answers to these and implementing them in my daily life will help me lead a more beautiful life. I also know the only way to do that is by staying on track and not relapsing again. its probably because i'm giving my brain space to function instead of flooding it with dopamine.