I don't even know where to begin with this, I've MO'd since I was 11, PMO'd since I was 12 and have been ever since. Porn never was an issue for me, however, when I turned 15/16 I started going down the rabbit hole of sissy and gay hypnos, and that's where a lot changed. When I turned 16, I lost my: morning woods, random erections, and most sexual desire unless I was watching these fucking hypnos. I've been trying to stop PMO'ing but I keep relapsing, today I saw some satanic shit in a hypno, and scared the fuck out of me. That's saying something, because I'm not by any means spiritual/religious. I have no desire to have a gay relationship or to "hookup" with a guy, however, when I see a trannie or a dick, I get fucking hard, and when I see an attractive woman I don't get hard. Maybe I'm in denial? No, I've liked girls since I was young and the only reason I'm thinking otherwise is because of this fucking messed up porn. I want my libido back, I want my confidence back, and most importantly I want to better myself. Not that being gay/bi/trans is bad, but I want to be straight as I have been for my whole life up till now. This has been going on for too long now, and I can't tell my parents about it since they'll take everything I own away because watching porn is so taboo in my family. So essentially what I'm saying is, I'm done, I've had it. No more porn, no more masturbation, I want to get better. I now have a relationship that's soon to turn into a gf/bf type deal, I like this girl (she's totally my type and is attractive), but it doesn't feel the same as when I first dated, I want this feeling back, I'll do whatever it takes. Does anyone have any tips, recommendations, etc? I'm really looking for feedback on whatever I said here.