Hello i've been trying to reboot for the last 5 years or so due to pied. I almost succeeded once but i fel back to the habit due to rebound effect. I was also smoking hash regularly which caused me to have psychotic episodes which forced me to stop smoking. Anyway fast forward to now, i spent a really bad period of loneliness during which i started fapping again because i had given up and hash was killing my moods. Now i really regret it cuz i've lost all my libido even when looking at porn (except some rare times i tested myself and i had a reaction of libido) and i wonder if i will ever heal. Current streak is at 229 with the occasional test to porn with no O but some PM, just to see if i can still get horny. Please help me this is keeping me up at night (almost 5 am and still cant sleep) and i dont want to test my erections with porn as im afraid it will slow down the recovery. Edit: I also want to note that im meeting this girl soon and she seems really into sex what a luck to meet her at this time. Im afraid that she'll reject me if she knows my issues so please help me.