229 days and still no improvement

@Realitnt I'm happy to help I'm fairly confident that you're not lost in case you're otherwise healthy and fit. You indicated you kept trying PMO fairly regularly in the past, so I'm afraid your 300 days are tainted by those relapses and aren't as high-quality as a strict abstainer's would have been. Although some healing can definitely have initiated, at least a part of it also was counteracted by your PMO sessions. If you struggle to stay away from porn and focus your energy elsewhere, I can highly recommend diving into psychological tools to understand yourself and your addiction better. I myself am benefiting from Phil Krupka's (@SirWanksalot) guidance over at https://yourbrothersaroundthecampfire.com/
Try and focus elsewhere and not worry about your sexual abilities. In my own experience, these worries are never productive and only lead to relapses (most of my relapses over the past year were started by self-doubt, so I can highly relate to how you feel!). Good luck bro.

 

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