3.5 years trying... Failed again @ day 26

Hi all,

Just joined the forum after failing again @ day 26.

After 3.5 years trying to stop from a 15 years daily addiction to the porn (often 6 hrs edging) and multiple times of masturbation , i failed again.

The process is so incredibly rough with massive migraine and total lack of energy for first weeks yet to fail often around 30 days-ish.

I barely don't know what to say as this is just such a massive down moment again. Every time I turn out to be so stupid to fall for this again, it's crazy.

I hope by joining the forum, i will get extra motivation to finally get off this. Hope you guys are doing better then me here!

 

Thanks a lot. I think keeping a journal might be handy too. It's just so frustrating (as you know) because you go through such an ordeal each time

 

Hope you will get out of it too!!

 

Thanks, i will look into this because it definitely would make a huge difference.

 

Thank you too for your good advice here!! I feel being member of the forum now might give me the last extra push (with all the extra advice of the forum members). Think will open a new thread of a journal and take it even more serious this time.

Must be amazing to be breaking free from this horrendous addiction / destruction of life spirit

 

True but it takes almost all out of me each time yet i keep failing around day 30 like this is the 20th time

 

Jazak Allah Khairan. Thank you all for giving me the energy to do this once for and all properly.

May God bless you all

 

Hmm guys, it seems I need 1 more like before I can have a signature to add a goal progress counter?

Could someone give me a like, so I can start with a serious attempt?

 

Liekwise

Likewise, how's it going with you?

 

What has been your longest streak?

 

Yes that's immediate tremendous down surge of dopamine leaving you in utter shame and disgust immediately after your failure ends. Somehow everything becomes SO clear in that split second, the realization of your screw up and how many days you thrown away again comes vividly clear to your mind.

 

Ps: thanks for the tips of you all guys. Next round I will try to implement most or all of those.

I guess the reality is 1 step in that direction is the moment the addictions grabs your hand and drags you into that hole again

 

Wow, how was your life at that moment?