36 days without porn and feeling down.

It’s been 36 days since I last watched porn and 22 since my last MO.

I’ve had a lot of ups and downs and went from feeling like my libido was returning a bit earlier this week to feeling like I’m still in a flatline. I think other stresses and emotions play a part but right now I don’t feel like being intimate in any way, be it with myself or with my partner. But I also feel depressed about that fact, because all I want is a good sex life.

I was even supposed to go visit my domme for some birthday fun which is upcoming, but I don’t feel very interested. I feel tired, uninspired, and blue overall.

i have faith that things will improve but it can be hard to see it sometimes. My overall demeanour is affecting my home life and making the already taught relationship with my wife worse. I don’t think ending our marriage is the answer but there are days where I wonder if everything would be better if I was on my own or with someone else