I have been in struggling recovery since 1990 and believe that my issues lie in trauma and depression which I have never fully addressed. The internet and the porn created in this age is more addicting than ever and to fully release oneself from it is one tough endeavor. I need to stay sober to address the underlying challenges in my mental health and my emotions. I don't want to be 70 years old and writing this blog all over again. I would appreciate any support and help in this journey...anyone out there know where I am coming from? I hope you are all doing well!! : )
LOL as a 70 year old guy fighting to recover from fapping, I resemble you remarkls. but stopping at 53 is better than not stopping. I have had a very happy career being expert on folk music on one particular instrument. I have written books about it, I get paid to go and speak to universities, music camps, and world famous players and have a nice network of decent friends I have me through this. When I was exactly your age, I was teaching at a college at night. One of my students wrote an essay about how she had played the piano as a youngster, gotten married, had a kid or two, and dropped it to one extent or another. Now her kids were old enough to go to school have a life of their own and she had time, was it too late at 24 to go back to the piano. LOL I was 54 then I think. I wrote her better 24 than 54, and dont wait until she is my age. Then I thought, well I have always wanted to play that instrument. Why dont I go out and get one, get lessons get into it dont wait I think you are smarter than a lot of people here insofar as you know that trauma and depression and disaster being raised and disaster in life . That is what getting off this stuff has meant for me. I know just stopping removes a veil a mask, some blinders or drugging that hides the idea that I feel wretched about myself even thoguh everything in my life is better than I could have imagined when I was your age and better than most. Fighting that inner fight is often the hardest when you appear successful,. you are not improverished, you have firneds or family, you just have to fight it. You just have to change. ' You just have to realize that to fight it and change you need to get off the FAP. You need to stop stop stop. You ned to work on getting your brain and body unfried We are all here to help you let me know if you eed a friend
Hey man I hope I didn't offend you? I am on day 3 and already struggling with obsessions from images at the gym...god I hate this disease!!
hey celebrate that you are struggling, how many times have you been not struggling, better to fight and lose and keep fighting than not to fight and let yourself be run over. what you have to do is get as much help that you can for YOU and realize that there is just this great big mountain of a multi billion dollar industry of blood sucking whore pimping nasty trying to get you to fap, and there is whatever big hole you had in you, and you just got to fight it. You have to realize that you and I and other trying to change are in no shape to do anything but holdout until our bodies and our minds and our hearts heal. DO NOT LOOK AT IT AS JUST STOPPING A BAD HABIT lOOK AT IT AS CHANGING YOU realize it is scary scary scary to get rid of this drug of porn and masturbation and the nasty ideas, realize that it shuts off fear and emptiness and fills you with bile, but it does something. if you last 2 days that is fighting and if you last 3 days, and if you fall you will be back and you will win, but changing yourself is the most important thing. it is hard you cannot expect to change it in 2 days after the time and effort and momney, but find whoever you can to support you know too that if you cannot make you will be back until you make it and everyone here THOUSANDS OF US will help you
