90 Day Challenge (after failing 20,000 times)

You’re almost there! Good to hear you still have your conviction. We can do this. I’ll come back and celebrate with you in 3 days

 

Welcome Bro.....

I am not thinking that far. And it's not healthy and practical to think that far. One can/might get overwhelmed if they think that far. I know it from my past experiences.

Most of the participants in this thread don't think that far...if not all.

So, we go by only one slogan ''One day at a time.''

But yes, I will complete the ''90 days challenge'', that's for sure. No doubt about it.

I wish you all the best in this endeavour. And remember if I can do it, so can you, or for that matter 'anybody'.

 

7 weeks....to be precise 50 days. This feels good. Real good.

Was not 'a piece of cake', but nothing 'worthwhile' is.

But, I must remind myself again,

''One day at a time. ''

 

Yeah!!! Back to give a hello! Keep going mikada, I’m right besides you brother. You giving hope to many people with this thread.

New comers should read from beginning of this thread, this man has come a long way.

Now, are you doing any healthy habits? Exercise, meditation, diet etc? All the basics, just want a quick run down with you and see where you at in this journey, but regardless, you’re doing fantastic brother. Baby steps and never give an inch, have that same guard as you had on the first day, with that mindset, you won’t cave in. I believe in you mikada!

 

8 weeks....this has been my best streak in the last 21 years.

Still gotta remember.....One day at a time..

Feels like I have almost no memory of the 'wretched past'. Seems like the 'healing' happened pretty darn fast.

This is much better than I anticipated.

But, my guard is on.

 

I’m happy for you Mikada! One day at a time brother, I’m right behind you

 

You are 'one half' of the reason why I am here today. Hard to believe, but it is the truth. Can never thank you enough bro.
You are a 'Godsend'.

 

It’s fate brother. We helped each other get through the hard times, now we cruise. If I’m a godsend then so are you. Respect and hold that god within us and use it’s strength!!! PS: it’s an honor to be half the reason, but you give me too much credit, I’m like any other forum member giving you the motivational speeches to keep going, you’re the one fighting the fight and doing it!! One day at a time. Peace love and positivity to you brother

 

Mikada, I’ve come to tell you I’ve lost this streak... twice... please take it from me and it’s everytnjng you don’t want. Shitty feeling, brain fog and depression. I lost those feel good vibes I’ve had, like it’s sapped out of me in an instant... dude let me be a lesson to you, keep going, now I’ve fallen behind, progress hindered, feeling hopeless, I almost forgot this feeling. But I’m gonna get up and go at it again, pray I make it out of the chaser affect days and the struggle for the week. It’s not worth it, way too soon, still drains the shit outta me!!! Sorry mikada, but I hope you’re doing well, I’m gonna get back on my feet tomorrow, wish me luck brother

 

It is okay bro.....you have done really good....just don't binge....twice is ok....but not more....try your level best to think of it as a 'Relapse Hour' (which is just 1 hour long), and if you can mould your mind to think of 'that hour' as a 'faux pas / mistake' then, I don't see what is the problem. One mistake is Ok, but don't turn a 'a kind of naive mistake' into a 'blunder' by going on a binge. I beg of you. You'll get the 'good effects' back in 3-7 days. I know what I am talking about bro. I believe, you know this too.

 

9 weeks completed.....so 4 more weeks to complete the challenge.

It is fluctuating between 'hard', 'easy' and 'very easy'. Most of the times I feel 'easy', but it also does gets 'hard' sometimes.

My strategy is simple. Reasonably simple.

In my room there is a 'Vision Board'. In the 'Vision Board', I have a quotation written in red and bold.

Heute ist der letzter Tag meines Lebens.
(Today is the last day of my life)

Now, for many this might seem utterly negative, but it ain't so.

For me this is a very positive statement.

I don't know for sure (with 100% guarantee), whether I will be alive tomorrow or not. The quote reminds me of my mortality. That we are not here forever. That someday we ought to go. It can be today or tomorrow or after 30 years or after 60 years or 'god knows when'. But one day we gotta leave this body and give it back to 'mother earth', atom by atom. That's for sure, nobody can escape that.

So, I should not waste 'even an hour' of my life. Why? Because I am here for a limited time. If I were here for 'eternity' then, maybe I can choose to be a 'porn addict' for 1 million years, and in the next million years I would choose to be a 'monk'.....but that's not possible in our 'small life span' here on earth.

So, find your strategy, your logic and see what works for you.

I sincerely believe that I am nearly over with the addiction. I am not saying I will never 'relapse' for the rest of my life. I might (chances are slim though), but I will never binge. Never. That's for sure.

So, again to remind everyone and myself : One day at a time (Or, Should I say 'One hour at a time' )

Stay beautiful. You deserve it. And the 'world' at large too.

 

Thanks for your kind words mikada, yeah I’m up and going again day 1. I hope things comeback in 7 days!? I didn’t even use P, but it was a pretty bad P substitute... well here’s to climbing the ladder again. Stay strong mikada, give no inch, like I did, it’s never enough and you’ll never be satisfied once you peek or edge, 99/100 times there will be a relapse, that 1/100 is for that outlier, very rare outlier.
Take it from me!

PS: your second comment you said that you may relapse one day down the line, just remember to not use P or P substitute, that’s the only way we can do it so we do t keep those pathways alive. Also, use lube so you don’t get death grip. But other than that, good luck on your 9 weeks! Don’t let me catch up!