90 DAY challenge: NoFap, I came crawling back...

Hi guys!

I'm a student from England, 23 years old. I am typing this at 4.50am, having just had a very embarrassing experience in the bedroom.

Let me explain my history with NoFap. I quit NoFap a few weeks ago, after convincing myself that I did not really need to do the NoFap challenge. I have tried NoFap numerous times before, and have only managed 13 days without PMO at the maximum in the past. I have a porn induced fetish, and this is why I came to NoFap.

I never had a problem with ED. That is to say, I never have problems getting an erection, even kissing a girl is enough. But I need to ask for your advice Fapstronauts, because I have never managed to get a girl as far as the bedroom before, yet tonight I would have had sex with a very pretty girl had it not been for my complete inability to get it up. The question I have is, I had a LOT to drink tonight, and was very drunk. But still, there was nothing happening downstairs. Should I be worried or was it just the drink?

I am going to try and do the NoFap challenge anyway, because according to BrainBuddy, an iphone app for overcoming porn addiction, I am highly addicted to porn, and my dopamine baseline is 68%.

What's weird is I literally have the fear about ED now, which is a completely new feeling, since I assumed that when I was actually in bed with a girl it would be no problem getting it up.

Anyways, I'll do my best to reach 90days. I think NoFap is a great resource, and porn doesn't seem as appealing now that I know the facts about dopamine levels and porn-induced depression.

I think NoFap is an important movement, and maybe in ten or twenty years it will be commonly accepted that high speed internet porn is generally a bad thing for the human brain. Who knows, right?

 

Doing well so far. In fact, its been too easy, I haven't even had to try yet.

I don't know if this because I have simply made up my mind completely on why I want to give up porn, so that I can just completely and automatically ignore any cravings, but seriously, its been as easy as pie so far.

 

Well, that glorious optimism is gone now. Relapsed again, blah blah, blah blah blah, etc etc.

Im mainly doing this just because porn might have f**ked up my erections, so want to make sure I have my mojo when i bring a girl home in future.

Also, the usual stuff, im at uni so should be meetin girls and not relying on porn to get me off.

90 days is gonna be hard, i know, cus every time i got to 1-2 weeks in the past my brain tells me to give up NoFAP and convinces me i dont need it.

But if i wasnt addicted, it would be easy to do this challenge.

 

Have just made it impossible to look at pornsites. Blocked all porn on my laptop and iphone, and gave my passwords to a relative in an email (which i have now deleted). I told them it was to give up online gaming, and for them not to give the passwords back till next July.

The only way for me to watch porn is Youtube, and yes i know there is some kinky stuff on there, but its not on the same level as proper porn sites, so this is a huge step towards shaking it off.

SORTED!!!!

 

Have changed the goal to 90days without porn, I am allowing myself to masturbate. In the TED talk, 'the great porn experiment', the expert pretty much says that masturbation doesnt matter, only porn. Bit controversial around here I know, but I think the porn is the only thing that needs to go.

 

On that note, IGY, i will try and greatly limit my masturbation, its just that I wont count myself as failing the challenge if I do. I guess masturbation sets off the parts of the brain that we are trying to keep inactive in order to reboot, so I will aim to not masturbate at all.

 

Update: Am going to restart. I didn't look at porn for 11 days; I can't because I have a filter on my computer. But I have been fapping like crazy. 2-3 times a day, and some quite intense fantasies have been coming into my head while fapping.

When I reached 13 days with no PMO in the past, I felt something. I felt like I had more energy, I felt a bit pent up, and I was more masculine around women (I think).

Quitting porn on its own, I have literally felt nothing at all in terms of change. I have not missed it, but I think the masterbating is still flooding my brain with dopamine like porn does, so no progress is being made.

Therefore, I am setting myself the monumental challenge of going 100 days without porn or masterbation. (however, sex with a real girl is not something I can really turn down.) I know this is going to be really hard, and im skeptical that I can do it, going on past experience, but I will give it my all.