90 days, still gay thoughts

I know this is a very common and overplayed dicsussion but my story is very unique! i couldnt really find another guy in my exact position.

im at 90 days without porn. Finding it kind of worrying that i still have gay thoughts.

I've been straight my whole life. Love woman. But something about a hard dick really turns me on.

Im in a flatline with deaddick. Buuuut if i think about sucking a guy off i get a raging hard on.

Im not scared to be bisexual. In fact, i really want to figure out one way or another if i should go out with a guy. See how i like it? The realistic part of me argues tho "if you only attracted to the dick, where can that lead to? it wont lead anywhere except sex. Your not going to ever settle down with a guy if you just like dick... but maybe it would be a good thing to at least try once? suck a dick and knock if off my bucket list before i get married!!! once im married say goodbye to any chance to suck a dick right?"

But i know i should probably wait until im done my 90 days no PMO. At least wait until then.

If i can make it to 90 days and i still want a cock. Then maybe i should go on a date with a guy?

I cant picture actually kissing a guy, or really being turned on by his face AT ALL. but the ab muscles and the big dick really turn me on.. Like big time.

I really wonder if this is going to go away or not? because i had a ton of other fetishes too but most have gone away since nofap (40 days no PMO now).

yet the gay thing remains..

Anyone else in same boat?

 

I started watching porn at age 11 maybe? and watched everyday for until age 26. Although i would go months here and there without watching any. Just masterbating like crazy.

 

I don't think I want to get rid of them lol If I'm bisexual I wouldn't be ashamed at all.

I just wonder if its from porn or I'm just like that.. Anyway I guess only time will tell.
Thanks for the reply.