Hi guys, I'm Kayden. A 35 year old single man. I've had an addiction to PMO for as long as I can remember. Well before my teenage years. I used to stay up late in my room watching showtime/cinemax and wanking off for hours. Decades later I'm still at it, only now with unlimited access to porn it's whenever I want, which is about 3 or 4 times a week. I usually do it when I'm stressed from work, or feeling down about myself. I occasionally use drugs while masturbating for the sole purpose of increasing my orgasms. The feeling of shame and embarrassment I have after, when I'm coming down is intense. All the trouble I go to just for a few seconds of pleasure. I basically see myself as a loser. I look at my life and how I've been single for most of it. It's been 6 months since I've had sex, and before that it was even longer. I've tried online dating and tinder but I believe my addiction to porn and masturbation have caused me to be and feel awkward around women whom I have a sexual interest in. I'm hoping that breaking the habit of PMO will help me with my awkwardness. At the very least, I'm hoping it will help me find the motivation to go out and try to meet someone. I've tried to quit on my own a few times and I fail after 3 days usually. I have finally come to accept that I can't do this without some kind of help, so I came here. After reading all the stories from other members I feel I have much in common with a lot of you, and that this might be the right wat to go about fixing some of the broken parts of myself. I would very much appreciate and help and advice you can give me in achieving my goal of completing the 90 day challenge. Thanks!